Hello,
I am new to the community and am reaching out as I just don't know what to do.
My dad was diagnosed 11 months ago with stage 4 stomach cancer, Mets to the peritoneum. He was told he had months to live. My brother was due to get married the following may and the consultant advised he should bring it forward. He brought it forward to 26th January and myself and my husband got married on the 28th January. I couldn't get married without my dad walking me down the aisle.
Dad had his first lot of chemo in the October but ended up having a bad reaction in the 5th dose and had an allergic reaction where staff had to use an EpiPen.
In April this year he was extremely jaundice and I was convinced the cancer had spread to his liver. They put a stent in his bile duct to reduce the bile build up which has worked thankfully but no one confirmed it was cancer related.
He had a CT scan which stated there was no visible cancer within or around the stomach but the peritoneal Mets were still there.
He has just had to stop his second lot of chemo after the 5th dose due to fatigue and loss of appetite. He has gone from 18 stone to 10 stone in less than 12 months.
I am struggling to watch my dad, who is my everything, change so drastically. I am grateful he has survived longer than originally thought but am constantly thinking how long do we have left.
The thought of him passing is literally tearing me apart. I am getting serious anxiety attacks where I am no signed off from work because I am struggling to cope with all of these emotions.
I can't stop worrying. I'm so scared. I just don't know what to do.
