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Good morning

I'm someone who has been on this journey for sometime now and please do believe me when I say "IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT"

Do not feel guilty

You are never going to be right.

Life will never be the same.

It probably seems that your whole world has come crashing down around you and no matter how you try you are unable to fix it.

However there are people you can reach out to, as you have already with the family counselling.

I have no experience of brain tumour as my husband is head and neck.

Please remember that your wife is being looked after by her medical team, try to take a step aside and help your children on this ride the family seem to be on through no fault of their own.  They are dealing with lots of emotions and if Mummy is being out of sorts and getting angry they need to understand it can not be helped.

It is not easy, how you cope with it only time will tell, but there is no right or wrong way as every situation is different.

When things get tough, and they will try to find an escape for yourself to gather your thoughts and emotions, then take another look and hopefully you will get over the next hurdle.

I'm really sorry if you was hoping for a "quick fix", sadly there isn't one, but as you recover from each episode you will be stonger and have learned how to go into the next one.

Do take advantage of any offers of help, do not be too proud to say you need help. Advise your children's school that Mummy is sick just now and that they may be a little out of sorts, if the school has a pastoral team in situ it helps if they know that family life is tough just now.

And of course there are lots of people on here that may be able to offer advice, please do keep posting it helps to get it out.

Best wishes

Jackie D


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Hi and a warm welcome to the online community. I'm sorry to hear about your wife and all you are going through. I'm just reviewing a book for Macmillan called The Neuroscientist Who Lost Her Mind and her behaviour during the worst of her brain tumours, and during the treatment, sounds remarkably like your wife's. Nobody could do anything right for her, she became quite obnoxious but was completely unaware that her behaviour was 'a brush with insanity'. I don't know whether your wife's tumours are the cause of her behaviour but you're certainly not alone with the torment of altered personality in a loved one with brain tumours. 

You might find some useful information in the Brain Tumours group and do call the helpline when things get too much. There's a page of links for support with the emotional side of cancer and, as Jackied said, take all the help you can get. There might be some cancer support groups in your area where you can find face to face support and if there is a Maggies Centre near you they run courses to help families cope with the stress of living with someone with cancer. I hope you find something helpful here. Thinking of you.



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I  feel so sorry for you. I've been on the cancer train with my husband for five and a half years, and although it has affected  virtually every aspect of our day to day lives, i think we have been really fortunate because his personality has not really changed. The scanxiety moments are bad; day to day,  he gets a bit grumpy and  short tempered, but then that could just be old man syndrome (will I get modded for sexism???).

But I think the brain is different, it really does change people ( and unfortunately , rarely for the better). It isnt just cancer, it seems to be all types of brain injury. I think you may be American?  but anyway it might be interesting for you to read about the rower James Cracknell: there is also an interesting peice about the effects of concussion in today's Guardian online.

So the good news is , it isnt just you and your wife; the bad news is, that you are probably dealing with this for some time to come. So you and your family and anyone else who is in your personal loop need to work out how you are going to deal with this. That includes the medics, who need to know about this behaviour. Sometimes just getting affirmation from other people can open the door to a solution.

It does sound as if you cannot manage to go on as you are. My only suggestion is that you do try to minimize contact with her, dont neccessarily be in the same room all the time, try to spend some time in the garden ( if you have one), or out of the house. When my husband was recovering from his operation, we agreed that I had an hour and half off in the afternoon, when I was not on call for tea, or picking things up or anything else that fell into the 'could you just' category. Maybe you could get a seizure alarm that would allow this, or a sitter ( in the UK there are charities which will provide this). You need some time to breathe.

You have a very hard row to hoe. My thoughts are with you.