I’m not sure where to post

Hi,

Im not sure where to post to be honest. I do have secondary breast cancer which had spread to the bones. That was my initial diagnosis. Was on Palbociclib, Letrozole, zoladex etc for about 18 cycles.

Then there was some spread to tissues in spine So I was started on EC chemo. My last scans there last week have shown the tissues have grown around spine so the EC chemo I was on didn’t work. I’ve had 5 days of radiotherapy to both parts of spine last week. It also showed lesions in brain/base of brain so I feel done for. They are giving me 10 sessions of high radiotherapy to brain over 10 days starting next week. I’m absolutely terrified. I’m wondering what’s the point?? I’ve no life to live for- I’m just prolonging this for my family and I hate it. I’m not sure if there’s anyone out there who is unfortunately in a similar position and understands how I feel?? I’m 39 and it’s just not fair. We’ve already lost my mum to cancer and lost my brother too to something else. It'll make half the family gone leaving my dad, brother and sister behind. I hate this- my family need me. I don’t know what to do- I don’t want this. Is there anyone who can help at all?

Jo x

  • Hi

    I am so sorry to read your post and to read what you are going through.  No wonder you are terrified and feel that it is totally unfair.

    I don't know if anyone might be around now who is in a similar position, but by answering your post it will be at the top of the threads in the hope that someone is around.

    In the meantime, can I ask you to give MacMillan a call and talk to an expert who will be able to give you some support and advice?

    0800 808 00 00

    Kindest wishes, Lesley

  • Hi Jo,

    I am so sorry to hear that you are in this situation. I read your poste and I can literally feel your pain through it.. It sounds like doctors try a lots of things to take control over this...It sounds like you whent through a lot but it also shows how thought you are.Dont give up! Take one step at the time..