I lost my mum 4 years ago. She had been fighting on and off for 10 years. The day before my 30th birthday I found that she only had weeks left. She managed another 3 weeks and 3 days. She came home at the end and I was her carer. No one told me what it would be like. After she passed I just carried on. I went to work, did the housework and tried to carry on as normal. I blocked everything out. Now 4 years later everything has become to much. My house is a mess and my family are suffering with my mood swings.
I've finally admitted I need help and started seeing a counselor. It feels like I lost her just yesterday all over again. I know I have to deal with this and I want to but it's hard. None of my friends have been through this and I don't like bothering them as the details of what happened.I don't want to speak to my dad and sister as the details will upset them.
Hoping someone here understands and can tell me that it will get easier.
Hi PlasticRose and welcome to the online community
I'm really sorry to hear that you lost your mum but you've come to the right place for support as there are may people in this group who will feel as you do.
It sounds like carrying on as normal was your way of coping but you now realise that you need to talk all your emotions through with someone, so well done for seeking help.
Sending a supportive ((hug))
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