Feeling anxious

Hello, hope I'm in the right section....first let me start off by explaining that I suffered with EXTREME anxiety....

Apart from that I am healthy (very active) and live a very healthy lifestyle (don't drink or smoke) there is also no cancer at all in either side of my family....

I lately have been obsessing and panicking about getting cancer especially breast cancer...I guess as a friend has just passed away.

I regularly check myself anyway and have never found anythung. However lately I have convinced myself that one armpit does not feel the second as the other and I've sent myself into a horrid downward, panicking spiral...after poking an prodding this armpit that I thought doesn't feel the same I can actually feel what I think is a lymph node...the armpit feels squishy and the lymph node is slightly swollen....I left it a week and then started worrying again so again I went looking around and found that "squishy area again" poked it around and again thought one armpit felt "squishyer than the other. I'm now really really worried...hubby had a feel.and he said he can't feel anything...I've been googling and sent myself crazy with worry to the point I keep crying...I have booked a doctor's appointment for Monday but I'm utterly terrified of what she will say...

  • The area that feels different is like one armpit is slightly fatter than the other if that makes sense and if I push and dig in I can feel the lymph node. It is slightly sensitive and I can only "fiFrowning2it" when my arm is in certain positions. I do have the same in the other armpit but they don't seem as prominent as this armpit if that makes sense? Still turning myself inside out with worry Frowning2

  • Hi Tinkerbell1980,

    Thanks for getting in touch.

    It’s natural to worry when someone you know who had breast cancer has passed away. And as you say you suffer from extreme anxiety then this can understandably make things feel worse.

    It’s good that you regularly examine your breasts and look after yourself. But, not so good that you’ve convinced yourself that you have a swollen lymph node under your arm and this is making you anxious about breast cancer.

    People often turn to “google” for an answer to symptoms that they are feeling. However, it’s not a diagnostic tool and no matter what symptoms you put into their search engine the word cancer will appear. Therefore, googling can cause greater worry to someone who already has anxiety. I can’t tell you not to google or go onto the internet. But if it’s making you go crazy with worry and keep crying then it sounds as if you would benefit from switching your computer off over the weekend.

    Only a doctor after examining you will be able to give you an indication of what this might be. So, it’s encouraging that you have made an appointment to get things checked out. If possible, try to not keep poking under your armpit over the weekend as this might make it difficult for the doctor to do a proper examination. Prodding the area can cause you pain.

    Monday is not that long to wait but to you it will no doubt seem like an eternity away. You’ve mentioned that you have suffered from extreme anxiety and I’m wondering what things you have tried that helps you? And for you to focus on what you can do to help yourself.

    If you feel that things are getting out of control, then we would advise that you give your GP a call and let them know. They may be able to see you today or offer you something to help keep you calm.

    Best wishes and we wish you all the best with your appointment. Please don’t hesitate to get back in touch with us and let us know how you get on.

    Ellen-Macmillan Online Digital Nurse Specialist.

    Ellen-Macmillan Cancer Information Nurse 
  • Hello thankyou for taking the time to reply to me..I am finding it hard not to let my kind run away with itself...I am worried what the doctor will say to me...this isn't the first "health worry/scaFrowning2re ive had so I will be discussing that with the doctor too....just feel a bit sick with worry at the moment Frowning2