Really Scared

I had an appointment for hemorrhoids today. The surgeon said she couldn’t get me in to remove them for about 2 months, once she looked, she told me she is bringing me in for surgery tomorrow. I have had these specific “hemorrhoids” and bigger mass for about 2-3 years. She said she wants to test for Anal Mucosal Melanoma. I’m really freaking out. I don’t know where else to turn. I have had two surgeries for my bladder in the past year. I’m always constipated and have a difficult time passing a stool usually. I bleed on occasion, maybe twice in the past 6 months that I can remember. 

  • Hi 

    Thanks for getting in touch with us. I hope you don’t mind but I’ve moved your question over to our nurse’s box as Sanjaya is our volunteer Anal surgeon who specialises in anal cancer surgery.

    It’s understandable why you’re freaking out, being told that you’re having surgery sooner than expected will no doubt be increasing your anxiety. It’s natural to worry that the symptoms that you’ve been having is due to cancer.

    The most important thing is that you’re being seen today, and that the surgeon is doing tests. This doesn’t mean that she thinks you have a definite Anal Mucosa Melanoma, it means she is being prudent and wants to rule it out.

    Now that you have had the further tests done today the waiting for the results will no doubt cause you further anxiety. It’s the uncertainty that can add to the stress that you’re feeling just now. It’s important that you talk to someone about how this is affecting you.

    If you feel that the anxiety is causing you to become distressed and affecting how you’re coping making an appointment with your GP can be a good place to start.

    You can also look at these tips to help you to manage your anxiety whilst you’re waiting for your results.

    Best wishes and take care.

    Ellen-Macmillan Online Digital Nurse Specialist.

  • Hi and a second welcome to the online community

    I see that you've had a lovely reply from Ellen and hopefully this will help you feel calmer.

    I hope the test went well today and I wondered if you'd like to join us over in the melanoma group. This isn't because I think that you have melanoma but because it'll give you the chance to talk to others who are waiting for test results and understand how scary this can feel.

    There's also plenty of us who have been through the waiting for results scenario and we can share our experiences and give you support.

    I've had a look in the group but there's no one currently who has said they're being investigated for the same type of melanoma as you. However, the type really makes no difference as we all understand what a scary place you're in right now.

    If you'd like to join just click on the link I've created and then choose 'join this group' on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself and post questions after selecting 'start a discussion' and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.

    When you have a minute it would be really useful if could pop something about your journey so far into your profile as it helps others when answering or looking for someone with a similar diagnosis. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Edit Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.

    Even if you don't want to join the group it'd be great if you could come back and let us know how you got on.

    I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you.

    x