Together with the stage 4 metastatic breast cancer I have also picked up the Epstein Barr virus. I am recovering from the cancer (3rd time) but the virus is chronic and causing extreme fatigue and seriously affecting my ability to concentrate. Work has been patient and have allowed me to do a research project working from home. I am submitting time lines for the project but throughout my treatment have been missing my deadlines. The problem is that I am finding it extremely hard to plan around the rather unpredictable fatigue attacks that can keep me in bed for 2 weeks at a time. My boss was very angry with me during our last conversation saying that he can not trust me to complete my work and that It appears that I am not taking responsibility. He is fully aware of my diagnosis but each time I have to admit that I have fallen behind because I feel unwell I feel shame and guilt. The results is that I am now avoiding communication with work as much as possible. This of course from my boss’s perspective is not helping. My boss has told me that he can no longer accept a shift in the deadline. I feel so humiliated and patronised but also so helpless. Should I accept that I am no longer able to function normally and resign? I am reliant on health insurance from my income.
I think that I would have lost my work by now if it wasn’t for the law. I feel like my professional reputation is ruined and that I am unemployable.