My mother was recently diagnosed with malignant cancer. I cannot seem to hold myself all the time and keep feeling panicky and isolated as the very thought of the inevitable and the worst is coming to life. I feel like I cannot lean on my self in this time and do not want to overwhelm those around me. Are there any virtual support groups I could join and share with others what I am facing. I am scared I will lose my job if I take up the role of primary caretaker for my mother. I have been that for her in the past, but it costed me my mental health and first job. I am concerned about her but I think I am selfish in thinking that caring for her may mean I may lose my job all over again. I am exhausted in many ways thinking about how this will elapse and test me in unimaginable ways. I really love her but I also fear for my future. I am so overwhelmed, please help.
