I feel the need to let it out...

2009-05-18T04:37:59Z

Where to start...ive been reading over this site for a few days now and just couldnt start a thread not even to introduce myself. So i decided to blog ,to use it to gabble away my worrys & fears. Im 39 and my partner paul is 38 he hasnt been well for a couple of months now,he had blood tests 10 days ago on the friday by saturday morning he was admitted to hospital. We sat waiting to see the doctor i sensed that we both knew this was serious but unable to share our fears. The doctor said it was serious,took notes asked ?s ...after a while came back and said it was leukaemia and that after bone marrow test it would confirm what sort acute myeloid leukaemia. Im still very shocked and very lost...not sleeping well 4-5 hrs a night...with paul im being very brave but behind closed doors i keep crying...worried that he wont get better. But feel like its a waiting game...and that there are no answers which there proberly isnt right now as its early days. He decided to take part in the trial and has been having chemo from day 1 ...they are giving him a combination of 4...hes had several blood transfusions...he feels okay and hasnt been sick as yet. He isnt a man of many words ... and im worried hes bottling up emotions but maybe thats his way of coping... Im confused as to what to expect next since the docs told us i feel like its a waiting game and thats the hardest part for me not knowing... There doesnt seem much info on here about leukaemia so any answers or help as what to expect would be appreciated. Thanks

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I feel the need to let it out...