It’s the waiting that I cannot stand

2008-12-02T09:44:12Z

I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer last Wednesday and although it was a huge shock three days later I find that I have come to terms with it and that I just want to get it dealt with. So, here I writing to help me vent my frustrations, I feel like a grumpy old woman! The mammogram and scan showed that not only was there a lump that is cancerous but there is a shadow which needs to be investigated. This calls for a ‘core biopsy’ which at the initial consultation it was suggested that this could take place Mon/Tues this week and the follow up consultation on Wed – fine not too bad. The reality is that the ‘core biopsy’ is Friday and the follow is likely to be next Wednesday but this is not confirmed, resulting in surgery (lumpectomy or mastectomy, depending on results) w/c 15th again not confirmed. My real frustration is that when we saw the consultant we specifically asked about going private so that this was dealt with quickly, it’s nearly Christmas after all (see I still have my sense of humour!), only to be told that this would not speed things up because I would need to be referred to another consultant. Once in the system it appears that you cannot easily change, it is like turning a massive tanker. I know that I will probably be laid up over Christmas and that I should take the opportunity to get organised now, I have two weeks and this is generally enough. But and this is a big but I cannot get motivated I find myself with a sense of inertia wanting to know what is going to happen before I plan anything. Am I alone in this?

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It’s the waiting that I cannot stand