My appointment was Wednesday so I wasn’t feel to bright but wasn’t going to miss this !
A really pleasant man but my hopes were dashed. After examining me he declared the same as my breast surgeon…. You have no fat!!!……noooooo…..I don’t want to hear that.
he examined my tummy, my buttocks and my thigh’s but really wasn’t hopeful that he could find enough fat to make me 2 new boobs…..i kept emphasising that they didn’t have to be big boobs, anything would be better than my saggy spaniel ears, I have loads of excess skin due to the weight loss, he even noted, quite excitedly that he’d “love to do a tummy tuck on me” …… feel free was my reply.
I had to go for another photoshoot for my buttocks and thigh’s and he announced he was going to take me to the MDT which is tomorrow (9th March)
he told me I should start to lower my expectations because he wasn’t hopeful but indicated that it doesn’t mean never….he said when I’m all sorted and my body is healthier ie not full of chemo he could do something then.
a little confusing really, is he expecting me to gain weight and grow some “fat”.
It wasn’t the outcome I was hoping for and I know I can have implants after my radiotherapy but I am struggling to come to terms with the fact I’m probably going to leave hospital with no boobs. I know for some people that really isn’t a problem and some are able to embrace it but it’s not for me, I’ve embraced being bald but boobless just isn’t cutting it with me.
In the grand scheme of things they are only boobs, I still have my life, I get that, I really do, but they are my saggy spaniel ears and it’s just a difficult one for me to get my head around.
So now I’m waiting to hear the outcome of the MDT, still hoping something will be possible because I know they can also use muscle but deep down I’m expecting the same outcome.
