staceyf

First Anniversiary

2010-11-11T21:53:10Z

Well, I'm away this weekend but Sunday is the 1st anniversiary of Steve's death. I can't believe the year has passed and I still feel numb but no amount of crying and being beside myself is going to bring him back and as my friends on the MW site say he was genetically coded to die at this time. It doesn't help though but I am totally astonished at the number of people that is affected by the death of a partner, child or parent.

Anyway my good wishes to all that are on this site

Love and hugs Stacey xxx

28th July

2010-07-27T20:20:11Z

Tomorrow it will be 6 years since my Mum died. I was upset at the time but got over things pretty quickly as she was 92 and just went to sleep. Also I had my own family and was very wrapped up with them. Last year when Seve got ill I broke down and told my daughter that I wanted my mum to put her arms around me and just cuddle me. I think she was a bit shocked to see a 58 year old want her Mum!! Steve died in November last year and having read Jenni's blog about how things were this time last year the anniversairy of her death seems somehow more important to me now, infact I can't stop thinking about it. Somehow writing about it makes me feel a bit better

Life

2010-07-17T20:36:05Z

well its been 7 months (I've had to count this in my fingers) since Steve died and the tears have now subsided or so I thought. Last night I had a parking problem and tonight i've been watching tonights the night. Well both have reduced me to tears but I turned the TV over and now I'm watching Mama mia while if I go outside I can hear the outside JLS concert at Escot. Pierce Brosmans singing or lack of it brings a smile to my face and through this sadness life goes on.

Stacey

wedding Anniversairy

2010-06-29T21:55:06Z

Tomorrow, June 30th is our 37th Wedding Anniversairy. There will be no cards and the shelf above the fireplace will be bare. It is now over 7 months since Steve's demise and not a day goes by without my thinking about how different things should have been. Oh well life goes on for some of us

meeting in mid August

2010-06-18T11:44:21Z

I am quite keen to go to this meeting in Birmingham. Can someone let me know the details as I very rarely use the chat room now

Holiday

2010-05-01T17:07:50Z

On Tuesday I am going away for a holiday and I feel extremely guilty that Steve won't be able to share this with me. Everything that could go wrong has but I know that I am lucky compared to other people and now my step mother in law is very ill in Hospital. I am going away with my sister in law and if anything happens we will have to come back as she understandably wants to support her father.

The house is a tip and I just can't seem to pull it together. Yesterday at work people kept wishing me a lovely holiday and I was in tears where I should be excited.

I have got really bad hay fever wich is nothing compared to what C sufferers are going through.

I have never written such a disjointed blog

What is wrong with me ?!!! As if I don't know.

good news at last

2010-03-11T17:38:59Z

My son's girlfriend gave birth this morning to a healthy girl. Mother and baby are doing well. Steve would have loved this. At last I have some good news to celebrate

what next?

2010-02-13T20:03:31Z

My husband died on 14th November and although I have my good and bad days I am coming slowly to terms with it. The problems I am now having relate ' to being own my own'. Last night I had a financial adviser round and although money isn't a problem at the moment as I am still working the problem will be when I retire. Also I am having problems with my electrics. Steve would have sorted it straight away and my brother, god bless him, did try but it looks like I will have to call out an electrician. Not a big problem some might say but when you have had someone fixing these problems for 37 years I feel it is. There are other things I have to get to grip with- like where are all the time switches? especially those for the garden lights and everthing else that he used to do and I never got involved with. Gosh how I reget it now. Still are they really important? I read a lovely poem in the paper today and I would like to share it with you.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Love and hugs Stacey xxx

snow,ice and feeling low part 2

2010-01-09T16:14:30Z

just to let everyone know, though its not very important, that I managed to get my car out of the drive. I have left just near the road so I hope no one slides into it only i really need to go to work Monday. Don't feel quite so low today but reading the forums set me off again.

Love and hugs to everyone Stacey

snow,ice and feeling low

2010-01-08T09:53:52Z

I tried to go to work today but couldn't get the car out of the drive. I know this is happening to loads of people but I just came in the house and cried. if Steve had been here he would have sorted it.

Today November 27th

2009-11-27T07:32:29Z

i am really, really not looking forward to today - my husbands funeral, How will I get through it?

numb

2009-11-14T21:31:33Z

Just to let you all know hy hubbie. Steve, Passed away today totally unexpected. I feel totally numb and can't believe this has happened so quickly

Love Stacey