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Back to work....post Breast Cancer

2011-10-15T12:02:26Z

Well I am fit enought to go back to work part time and I had my first two afternoons last week.It feels very odd as obviously I have been in a protective bubble for the past 11 months.

My life has completely changed and I am a 'new me' who hasn't figured it all out yet.

I feel like a square peg in a round hole...part of me doesn't work properly due to treatment...my brain doesn't retain information and my right arm is bad with lymphoedema and I am limited to duties and fatigue is draining.

I just wondered if anyone has gone back to work and feel the same?

Thanks for reading

Sarah x

Feeling happier today...

2011-09-06T19:59:39Z

At last I have finished all my treatments! I have been through a tough year and am relieved it is at present all over....I have been a brave soldier and not really said much to anyone so have ended up with depression which is now being treated.

I wish I had tried to speak to the people that offered to help and let the people who wanted to visit even though I thought I looked awful because of the chemo etc....it was just to say to people just starting out on the treatment path don't be too proud and if anyone asks to do anything do it as a distraction whilst you go through the process instead of putting on a brave face to the world...I also finished with my partner during the treatment so have to begin life all over again and I have every faith that I will find someone who will have empathy with my situation and not abandon me when life gets tough.

Be strong everyone......have a hug from me if you are feeling low.....take care x

And what now??

2011-08-25T18:37:04Z

Today I finished my Breast Cancer treatment...hooray!!!.....or is it really??

I have been on this journey all year...lumpectomy..auxilliary clearance...18 weeks chemo...split with partner of 6 years....5 weeks radiotherapy...Tamoxifen...side effect is finally depression and now I am released into the world again.

I am frightened....I have not had to organise myself for the last 8 months and although I have waited for this day feel very low...I know I am one of the lucky ones to have been able to have treatment. I know that each day it will get better...'keep smiling' everyone says' your so brave' and 'you've done so well'...pity I don't feel like it....has anyone else felt like thisI wonder ???