sheila gibsonx2&#39;s blog https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/sheila_gibsonx2/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-09-11T10:36:14Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/sheila_gibsonx2/posts/lost-my-mum2009-09-11T09:36:14Z2009-09-11T09:36:14ZHi This is my first time on here, I lost my mum on the 26th June 2008 to Cancer, I remember the day like it was yesterday, It was a Thursday the time was 10.30, at Northwick Park Hospital same ward I lost my nan in 5 years before. As sad as this is I can not grieve for her, It not a case I don&#39;t I just can not I&#39;ve tried looking at old photos, playing the song we had on in the church I&#39;ve even went into the loft and open some boxes with some of her stuff in it, but still no tears.People have said to I should grieve or it will hit me like led balloon, but I feel like she still with me so why should I grieve? The things I hate most about all this is I never got to say bye or tell her I loved her, because by the time I got to the hospital she was in a coma state, I wish I colud of said bye I think that might of helped, she was my world my rock, she was the type of person that would help anyone I hope I turn out like her? I look forward to hearing from anyone who been threw what I going threw Sheila<div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=245019&AppID=25611&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember