Sharron28

The end x

2010-06-20T07:37:44Z

My father passed away peacefully with us holding his hand on Wednesday 16th June 2010. Happy Father's Day Dad, Rest in Peace. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

It is so unfair!

2010-06-06T08:34:45Z

My dad has now decided that he is not going to have anymore treatment at all including blood, the doctor has told us that within a week to ten days he will propably be sleeping all of the time and then it will just be a matter of days - all I wanted was for him to see the World Cup - it is so unfair.

The next few weeks are going to be the toughest I know and Ihate getting upset in front of him because that makes him more stressed, he keeps telling me to live my life as normal but I am scaed to leave the house in case when I get back it is too late.

How do you cope with this ?? I am not sure that I can xx

I'm struggling

2010-05-18T18:24:36Z

I am really struggling here, my dad (I am his only child) is in the final few months, probably weeks. He is at home at my house I have two teenage children and a husband.

My dad is always rude and snappy and wants to know why I am not doing things quick enough for him. He doesn't want to go to a hospice and I don't want him to either but I am scared about losing everything including my mind and then I feel selfish because of the position he is in.

Is it right to be angry at him? It is not his fault and he has fought so valiantly and proudly for the last 14 years. But I don't know what to do for the last few weeks.

I have never felt so sad, amgry, lost or pathetic in my whole life and there is no one I can talk to because he is only my dad no one elses so no one else will feel the same as I do.

Sorry to go on I hate myself for it :(