sarahjchttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/sarahjc/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2010-08-02T15:32:26ZThird time unlucky?https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/sarahjc/posts/third-time-unlucky2010-08-02T14:32:26Z2010-08-02T14:32:26Z<p>Hi</p>
<p>I just need to write something to get it off my chest. I am at work and cannoit concentrate.</p>
<p>Twelve years ago I had ovarian cancer and am fine. Five years ago I had thyroid cancer and again an fine. Several weeks ago I experienced some changes in bowel habit, only for a week but long enough to make me think something was not quite right. To cut a long story short, two weeks ago I had a rigid sigmoidoscopy and because the registrar could not see enough (apparently the suppository had not worked - didn't feel like that to me!) so he asked for a CT scan and colonoscopy and fairly urgently. I had the CT scan on Friday and have the colonoscopy this Wednesday. My mind has been going from there is nothing wrong to I have cancer again. </p>
<p>My husband is loving and supportive but this has completely thrown him and he is in such a state and panic about it all. I can't really talk to him exactly how I feel as I know it will upset him even more and he is so worried now. Today, it has hit me that something may wellbe wrong and for the first time I am really really worried. I just hope they can tell me something from the colonscopy onm Wednesday, even if it is not the news I want. I keep asking myself, why am I having this done so quickly? It is just belt and braces because of my history or is he really worried. Brain tells me one thing, stomach says the other!</p>
<p>It sound stragne but I just need to know. I can face it if it is bad news, done it twice and do it again.</p>
<p>On a moee trivial point, I am very hungry today and tomorrow is going to be worse! I tried a plain mashed egg sandwich with white bread for lunch, no butter no mayo. Shan't be having that again, ever!</p>
<p>Sarah</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=356869&AppID=31035&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember