sam

my baby boy

2011-07-02T13:40:16Z

Manged to push enough drugs into the system to get to see my youngest son arrive at his prom.He knew how hard it was for me to get there and how rough i must have been feeling, he immediatelt came over to me gave me a massive hug and said thaks mum for coming. I have no idea how i managed not to cry my eyes out i was so moved and emotional. Even more amazing is that they diagnosed him when he was 3 with Autusim and the prognosis was not good, 13 years on and he looks like to be getting 8 or so GCSE at b or above has a girlfriend and a really good set of friends. Its times like these that really give you the boost to fight the daily crap you endure with cancer and i was such a proud mummy last night, even though i am paying for it today.

COLLEGE

2011-06-27T16:49:40Z

Passed my college course in nvq 2 in hairdressing very pleased, being theeldest on course, having 2 operations and 3 lots of chemo am a very happy person.

poor lad

2011-06-13T17:14:05Z

My poor son has to go back to Barts after 5 years in remission, i cant but help feel sad for him(we are not the closest of mums and sons) but having to go through this is awfull once but faced with it twice is tragic at such a young age. It seems his liver is an issue now as was before when he had testicular cancer, with stomach, lung an dliver secondries.Finding the strength to do the fight again must be so hard as i am ony half way through my chemo and have had enough allready, imagining knowing whats ahead of you?.

sam

3rd chemo

2011-06-10T20:38:34Z

3rd chemo woo hoo half way there thank god ..........bloody painfull getting canulated 3 times they tried ....................i swore like a navvy lol not to mention cut of the nurses blood supply in her hand. Feeling a bit sick but nothing major.Weekend of rest.

HAIR

2011-05-18T19:03:46Z

13 Days in from 1st Chemo and started to loose hair, day 19 and hair amost gone allready am very shocked at how quickly it has gone. Have to say it was a bad day for me.

omg

2011-05-11T18:18:40Z

OMG my bloody hair is falling out allready and its only been 13 days so not good :(

ONE WEEK IN

2011-05-05T18:04:35Z

One week in and not so bad yet!!!!!!!

A few mouth ulcers, a little bit of nausea and an overwhemlming feeling of tiredness but otherwise ok. Oh and the body rash from the antibiotics that makes me look like a 17th century pox victim lol, but if it keeps bugs at bay i can live with it. Adelaide is behaving herself rather well and even the teenage son is doing housework wihout being asked, yes i must be ill lol.

So in all not a bad start to chemo!!!!

1st Chemo

2011-04-28T15:31:20Z

1st one today of 6 feeling a bit woosy but ok, took the brave step to cut all my hair off.

BAD PLACES

2011-03-31T21:17:37Z

Really in a bad place at the moment feeling very low and alone but still pushing everyone away completely fed up and dreading chemo.

FIRST DAY BACK AT COLLEGE

2011-03-01T06:36:34Z

Had my first full day back at college since the christmas break, after the operations to remove lump and lymph nodes.

Was extremly tired at the end of the day but was truly happy and content to be back. I had an assessment which i passed and have 3 more this week.

Hosp has given a breather of this half term to get my course as near completed as i can so when i am on Chemo i have very little to complete and can relax as much as you can whilst on Chemo!!!!

Had many ask me how i was feeling and many said how much better i was looking. Think i had a very big smile on my face all day.

Still could not sleep though.

excellent news

2011-02-25T07:05:38Z

Cancer has not spread. Chemo starts on 28th April managed to negoiate a reprive as i need to sort out so much prior to chemo and need my head to be in the right place. Radio therapy and Tamox tablets after as well.

Also got a chance to tell oncology team how badly i felt i had been treated and the total lack of aftercare that i have recieceved . I actually felt in control for the first time in months.

today isD day or more apt C day

2011-02-24T07:16:08Z

will finally get my results of tumour analysis, bloods and scans etc. Its DOUBLE EDGED KNIFE i want to know but i dont as i want my life to just carry on as normal.I have been coming up with all sorts off plans to evade the dreaded chemo for a variety of reasons deep down i dont think these are going to work and i will have to acceptt Cemo will happen just when it will is a negoiation. So much to juggle being a single mum to a 3 yr old for starters and sorting her needs out comes pretty high on the list.

Well must stop watching Peppa PIg sunuggled up on sofa and go get ready for hosp