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Saying a prayer for you Mum x

2011-03-21T19:15:57Z

Firstly, Sorry that im not good at spelling or Grammer!

I havent wrote anything for a while, but today I have thought about it all day?

I am a carer for my Mum (Jenny) who has Stage 4 NSC Lung Cancer and secondry brain, liver and spinal cancer. She was diagnosed in August 2009 and they gave her 3 months... Wow how wrong were they because 19 months on we are still fighting the bloody thing!!

Mum has been on high dose steroids for the last 19 months which have really taken there toll on her legs, they are so weak!! She also re started Chemo 2 weeks ago and was due to go for what we call the top up last Friday but her platelets in her blood were to low that she didnt have it. This morning mum's legs gave way and she just couldnt walk so we called Weston Park Cancer hospital who sent the ambulance to get us. Mum has been admitted now but im soooooo worried that she will not come home. They have said that tomorrow they will consider a blood transfusion but i think why wait and not do it now?

Im scared that she is being taken away from me and I have no control.

14 months on..

2010-10-09T10:05:02Z

Hi Everyone...

Its been a bloody long time since i last came on here, I think i was trying to bury my head in the sand!!

Well, I can say im back.... and ready to go.... It's been 14 months since Mum was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer and a secondry brain tumour and at the begininging all seemed bleak, It was last August that the Doctors were saying she wouldnt see in Christmas 2009... Well, Guess what, She did and she is her with me fighting this bloody thing all the way..

Mum never stops amazing me, she goes into town everyday on the bus just to get out for an hour, She goes to the local club every Sunday afternoon, nothing phases her, and for that im so proud.

Who would have thought it this time last year, I just shut my eyes and pretended it wasnt happening, Im glad i reacted in the way I did at the time because I have since learnt alot about my self, Cancer doesnt scare me anymore, Its something thats there that can be fought... and won. I think I have re thought about what the word winning means? for us it doesnt mean beating Cancer untill it is gone, It simply means taking each day as it comes and getting over the hurdles that are in our way. Thays why we are winning this Cancer!

Speak soon all. xxx

Its all go at the mo!!

2009-11-26T20:19:57Z

Well its been a while since I wrote on here so thought it about time I did..

Mum is doing ok at the moment, Goint tomorrow for the last cycle of chemo (Gem Carbo) and then next Friday for the top up. She has been very tiered the last week and has a low blood count so is going to have a blood transfusion on Monday.. Then going on Xmas eve for a CT scan.. ooo its all go at the mo.

On a positive note I have started my fund raising campaign for Weston Park Cancer Hospital in Sheffield.. Had a weird idea last night to delete all of my friens off facebook and then ask them to danate to my fund to be re added.... the mad thing is its working and raising money!!

Im looking to do some fund raising activities in 2010 and was looking for any ideas you have that I can do... ( not jumping out of a plane... Scary) so let me know your thoughts.

If you would like to donate anything check out www.justgiving.com/robert-hunt

Love you all and hope your all well x

Rob

A great day x

2009-08-16T19:06:08Z

Today has been a great day, My sister came to visit wth her husband and one of her two sons, I was dreading her arrival as I knew that there would be alot of emotion as she has not seen my mum since we got the news that mum has cancer, I know that sounds selfish of me as I have had just over a week to mull it over and spent every day woth mum. My sister took my mum shopping to Retail world and they had a fab time just the 2 of them, I really wanted to go with them but took a step back and let them spend some time together just the 2 of them like I have the last week, When then got back we had he best dinner in the whole world, all sat outside together eating and talking like we havent for soooooo long. Mum has just text me to say that she is going to bed now,, I bet she is knackered bless her. I hope tomorrow is just as good as today Hope you are all keeping stonge and well xxxxx Rob Ps- Sory about my spelling x

The last 24 hours or so

2009-08-14T18:41:09Z

This is my 3rd blog on here, and I still feel lik i dont belong, think that is what we all feel though. Yesterday my mum was going to Rotherham hospital to have a Bronchoscopy, I had very mixed feelings about this as it was the first real appointment that my mum has had since we found out that she had Lung cancer and secondry Brain tumour, Me and my partner picked my mum up at 10am and made our way there, the mod was sooooo quite in the car on the way there. When we got there my mum felt so relax as she has worked at the hospital for many years as a auxilery nurse before she retiered a few years ago, She had her bloods taked and blew into a massive machine to see how well her lungs were working and then went for the Bronchoscopy, she was so brave, she didnt have any sedative she jus took it on the chin and did it. when we left the hospital she was really hungry so we called and got fish and chips at her request, o and 3 slices of bread and butter.. Today I went back to see the GP, Me and mum see the same one and he has signed me off for 2 weeks,, I just want to spend every minute with mum right now and I know that she wants me there too, While I was there I asked the GP how bad is it with mum and he said that it was bad and that he may not be here at Christmas, I keep thinking that some one is going to ring me to say " Sorry we have made a mistake " but I know that it is not going to happen. I have made my self a promise that me and mum are going to have a fab few months and are going to really get to know each other, as daft as it sounds i was thinking today I dont even know her fave colour? how daft is that? We are still waiting for a treatment plan so I hope that it comes soon, Sorry for all the bad spelling on here lol and Thanks to all of you that have sent me msgs prev, I eally appreciae them and I really enjoy reading all of your blogs. Be strong Rob xx

getting it off my chest... again

2009-08-09T12:10:13Z

Well this is the second little blog that I have done in 2 days, And for some reason it makes me feel a little better inside being able to get all these words out sit back and read them, Its been 2 days now since mum was told that she had lung cancer and secondry brain cancer and it still does not seem real, I dont know if it ever will you know? At the moment I feel sooo angry, Sad, helpless all at the sam time, I have just got back from my mums house, she only lives 2 min away and we sat and had breakfast out side this am, I have never seen my mum eat so much so thats a good thing, she says that she is building her strenth up ready for when she starts her treatment. I also got my mum a little book so that she can write down all the things that she wants to know, Not sure if thats a good thing but it felt right at the time. Were waiting for thursday to come now, she is going to have a biopsy done on her lung, I dont know how this is done so if anyone knows please can you let me know so that I know what to expect?

New to this

2009-08-08T12:36:39Z

Hi all, Im very new o this and not really sure what to write.. I have joined this site as i have just recently found outthat my mum has cancer. Im still really struggling o take it all in and cant get my head round it at all. On Tuesday last week my mum was admitted to hospital with nothing more that a blood clot in her leg and stayed in for 3 days, while she was there she told them that she was awaiting a brain scan as she had been getting really bad headaches for a few months and was just sleeping all the time, So they did the scan at the same time. This showed that she had caner in her right lung and it had also spread into her brain. My mum is back at home now and is going on thursday to have a biopsy of her lung. I dont know what to expect and i feel that i have a million questions to ask. Rob