raayne's blog raayne's blog https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/raayne/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-08-11T21:59:26ZITS getting worse!https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/raayne/posts/its-getting-worse2009-08-24T09:58:10Z2009-08-24T09:58:10Zwell here goes my second post.. only really using this when my head feels about to explode which is about now.
SO my storey so far my aunt got liung cancer it spread to other places (she is now riddled with the stuff) all chemo and radio therapies stopped, 6 weeks no treatment... cancer spread... nothing anybody can do and that brings you all up to speed .
After being released from hospital my aunt has gone to a palitaive care lodge and now nurses are caring for her round the clock. The specialists have said she dosent have long left , she has now picked up a bug from hospital (Clostridium difficile) so has been having sickness and diarrhea for the last 4 days. looking quite weak from last nights visits. tryed to get her to eat a little something but her appetite isnt really there. keeps wanting to get out of bed even though she has now movement in her legs due to a nasty one on her spinal cord... I dont really feel better i still feel angry there arefamily fueds going on , people are acting childish and she is dying . I just want everything to right itself .......
x0x0x0 godbless you all x0x0x0<div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=229445&AppID=24734&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberTODAYhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/raayne/posts/today2009-08-11T20:59:26Z2009-08-11T20:59:26ZHMMM today I thought I would start my blog, come to think of it I think it might help. Ok so the last 24 hours have been another rollarcoaster ride yet again.
For those wo dont know me or havent read any of my posts (thats one). I am raayne and i have been coping with cancer in the family. My aunt who has been given weeks to live is dying of cancer it began its nasty manifestation in the lung. it has spread and now my aunt is in the last stages of her epic cancer battle.
I found this site when I was at a low ebb and decided it might offer me support, I have considered making a post all day but now I feel like I can commit some words to my bog. I have read some previous blogs on here some are hopeful others make me feel that familiar feeling I feel once to oftten, others make me feel ever hopeful, but of all mine is the most important right now this is my first time of telling the world how I feel , its ok to feel lost and rock bottom. Its ok to cry myself to sleep most nights and its ok to talk to others about my suituation. something i wouldnt have said 3 weeks prior to joining this site. i guess even those who seem to have themost strength eventually end up being carried ( this is where I talk about my partner , my life , my strength and my courage.) I have not been the easiest to live with ask him? . i know I will call upon him increasingly more, and probably this site . well here's my first blog and sitting here i feel relieved to have broken my silence .
God Bless all those who are affected by this and the effects of cancer ......
xoxo Raayne xoxo
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