PaulL&#39;s blog https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/paull/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-02-04T14:48:59Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/paull/posts/love-you-dad-xxx2009-02-04T13:48:59Z2009-02-04T13:48:59ZOn Monday, as a family we decided to withdrawal my fathers lung infection treatment, declined putting him on a ventilator and go for &#39;TLC&#39; only. He died just over twenty four hours later (yesterday). I am now haunted by him struggling to communicate through the morphine, how aware was he? Was he scared? Was he panicking? Did he resent us as we sat with him as a family and watched him die, not responding to his requests? I&#39;m glad he is in a better place now but those last few days are haunting me even though the last minutes of his life were serene and even warranted a smile from him as I whispered &#39;I love you&#39; in his ear. I do have some positives - my local Hospice, MacMillan and the NHS staff are worth more than any professional footballer is worth, next time you have dealings with them give them a smile and let them know :-) Paul<div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=224283&AppID=19425&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember