October 13th 2022

Not getting easier

2023-07-31T13:28:29Z

Still feels so raw and miss hubby constantly. I still eel like he is going to walk through the door I will be going back to work soon which I am looking forward to, but working on a hospital ward will be hard. I need to get back in to a routine the...(read more)

Lonely

2023-07-23T17:58:55Z

I’m a few weeks into being a widow and struggling I just feel lost and lonely. I always did everything with hubby and now he isn’t here I’m not sure where I fit in. Our daughter and son in law have been amazing but they won’t ...(read more)

My world fell apart

2023-06-27T04:21:43Z

I know I haven’t wrote in along time as me and hubby was making the most of things. Sadly he lost his fight on the 16/06/23 I cared for him right to the end and granted his wish to be in our bed with me our daughter and his devoted dog by his s...(read more)

Home

2022-12-13T17:59:44Z

I’m having a tough day today someone is always at the house or ringing up and I’m frustrated! I understand people want to see hubby but they never came before now all of a sudden everyone wants to come, all I want is to come home from wo...(read more)

Hospital appointment

2022-12-08T17:35:32Z

Hubby been for an appointment this morning to to see how things are since he was discharged from hospital with pneumonia, his urologist was surprised he was still here after how ill he was, he’s a fighter x we know that the cancer has spr...(read more)

Time away

2022-12-02T20:25:00Z

We have just come back from a few days away and it was lovely, we turned the phones off and walked along the beach, laughed, ate and just spent quality time together which is what we both needed. I have noticed hubby is in more pain in his chest and ...(read more)

Not wrote for a while

2022-11-27T20:19:00Z

Hubby has been making memories, Zip wires, castles, casino to name a few and now we are going to a lodge on a lake just the two of us for a few days to have a rest! He is still doing ok but we know that can change very soon, the nurses have visited a...(read more)

Home

2022-11-14T18:55:00Z

Hubby home today from hospital, his oncologist has told us chemo isn’t an option as that could make things worse if he got an infection as part of the lung has died, just got to make the most of our time together and get out and about abit. The...(read more)

Hospital

2022-11-10T17:31:00Z

Hubby been admitted to hospital today IV antibiotics and fluid sickness not settling and the sweats have increased they are taking him for a brain scan just hoping nothing has spread. Things have happened so quickly and we have been banging our head&...(read more)

Limbo

2022-11-04T13:35:00Z

Hospital rang biopsy results in and made a appointment for the 17th! Hubby didn’t ask any questions just agreed he hasn’t been able to eat anything, when he gets something in most of it comes back up as a result has lost 4kg since the 13t...(read more)

Guilt

2022-10-31T15:06:00Z

Today I went back to work for the first time since hubby was diagnosed, everyone was lovely which was nice but unfortunately someone passed away as I went on shift (I-work for the NHS) which was a bit of a shock but I had to get on with my shif...(read more)

Not a good day

2022-10-27T14:35:00Z

Today has not been good for hubby, We went away for the night what a big mistake he did nothing but moan he’s turned into a very grumpy man. I do understand why as cancer has taken over everything but I did remind him that it may feel like the ...(read more)

Waiting

2022-10-21T14:42:00Z

Hospital just rang and hubby is going in on Tuesday for another biopsy, it’s a step closer to finding out. We also had a lovely phone call from his GP who through out all of this has kept in touch and asked if we needed anything. Hubby ha...(read more)

Confused

2022-10-19T16:00:00Z

Just had a phone call from hubby’s Macmillian nurse, Told us it’s not good even though it sounds like it is, biopsy results come back negative! And would hubby have another one? Yes yes yes! we need to know what type of cancer it is to se...(read more)

Support

2022-10-18T14:55:00Z

The day that will stay in my mind forever. It’s not good news as me and hubby sat there our worlds falling apart. I’m sorry It is cancer and unfortunately it has spread we can offer you palliative care!!!! What no no no this isn&rsq...(read more)