Natalie85's blog Natalie85's blog https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/natalie85/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-08-26T13:48:15ZHow time passes by...Soldier on...https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/natalie85/posts/how-time-passes-by-soldier-on2010-04-21T14:38:57Z2010-04-21T14:38:57Z<p>I felt like blogging because I'm feeling a little sad today, a year ago on this day I arrived home back In Australia after 5 years in London. Today was also the day we had our family meeting with the hospital nurses and doctors and learnt of the reality of mums condition. It's a sad time for me remembering the lead up to moving back home, feeling relentless anxiety for mum, not knowing what to expect yet fearing the worst. I've been listening to a lot of music lately and reflecting on our journey over the last year. ive found the song below particularly relevant to me and my feelings in the lead up to mums passing.</p>
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<p><span id="ctl00_cp_lblContent"><i>Who wants to know?<br />All that is gold, is rusted<br />No one will know<br />Seasons cease, to change, and..<br /><br />How far we've gone<br />How far were going<br />So here and the now<br />And the love for the sound<br />Are the moments that keep us moving<br /><br />Waves crash along<br />Battered lonely lighthouse<br />Tomorrow shes gone<br />And if not, some, they somehow<br />Are, these, hands, always<br /><br />Well this side of, mortality is<br />Scaring, me, to death<br />To death<br /><br />Don't think about it at all<br />Just keep your head low<br />Don't think about it at all<br /><br />Soldier On<br />Soldier On<br />Keep your heart, close to the ground<br />Soldier On<br />Soldier On<br />Keep your heart, close, to the ground<br /><br />Don't think about it at all<br />Just keep your head low<br />Don't think about it at all<br /><br />Yeah..<br />Will you take me tonight<br />Yeah..<br /><br />Soldier On<br />Soldier On<br />Keep your heart, close to the ground</i></span></p>
<div><i><b>(Written by the Temper Trap)</b></i></div>
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<div>And that's what we did, and continue to do, soldier on....</div>
</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=332846&AppID=22568&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberThought for the day...1"https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/natalie85/posts/thought-for-the-day-1-quot2009-12-14T11:35:34Z2009-12-14T11:35:34Z<p><i><b>"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years."</b></i></p>
<p><b>Abraham Lincoln 1809-1865</b></p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=281076&AppID=22568&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberon your 5 month anniversaryhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/natalie85/posts/on-your-5-month-anniversary2009-10-28T09:12:33Z2009-10-28T09:12:33Z<p>To my dear mum,</p>
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<p>5 long months have passed now... though the tears keep flowing, I found a poem you wrote down that I know you kept near to you...</p>
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<p class="MsoNormal">May You Always Have…</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Adventures to enrich your soul</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Courage to be yourself</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Dreams that come true</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">HEALTH to live life to the fullest</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Joy to colour your thoughts</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Opportunities to grow</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Values to guide you</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Memories to keep you warm, </p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Family, Friends & Faith</p>
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<p class="MsoNormal">These words I know gave you comfort, and I too will try find the same...</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">loving you and missing you as always...</p>
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<p class="MsoNormal">xxx</p>
</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=266186&AppID=22568&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberThe Year of the "firsts"https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/natalie85/posts/the-year-of-the-quot-firsts-quot2009-08-26T12:48:15Z2009-08-26T12:48:15ZWell it's officially begun for me... the year of the "firsts" First year without my mum on my birthday yesterday... I generally am all up for celebrations but this year ...
What can I say, I woke up crying, set my sister off crying, went to visit mum at the cemetry and cried and spent the rest of the day in a pretty awful mood.. it'll be 3 months this friday I wish i could say its getting easier but it really hasn't..
Am I supposed to learn something from all of this?
ahhhhh! thanks for listening
xxx<div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=227847&AppID=22568&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember