my mum and me

4th cemo

2010-07-02T16:09:48Z

not been on line for awhile mums last cemo was delayed for aweek and she was really poorly after it .should of had her cemo on thursday but told the doc she had a day trip on saturday and if he can delay it so can she lol . shes got a new wig and it make her look ten years younger it great .all going great at the moment had a bit of a set to with my brother as it seem his leaves everything for me to do and felt i needed some suport but that now sorted so we,re all of to weston-super -mare tomorrow some sea air should do her the world of good .

second fec

2010-04-22T17:27:13Z

all went well today mum was sent home some injections to have 9 days after to help with her white cell blood count but we're back on track

hair today gone tomorrow

2010-04-22T06:22:46Z

had to cut mums hair off yesterday well what was left made me feel so sad .she looked really nice in her haed scarf and has had her wig styled but iit was still upseting for her .she came out of hospital on sunday in time for my birthday so that made her happy and her white blood cell count was ok .just have to see how it is today as she should be having her second lot of fec but has been warned it may not happen if her white count not high enough .hopefully its ok shes been told she might have to have some injections after so they will be showing me how too do them for her .i think she is now begining to except that she is poorly and needs to slow down abit and except help from others instead of trying to do everything her self .

shit zero white blood count

2010-04-16T19:21:21Z

mum only went for a thyroid test and the next thing the docs on the phone very bad blood count next the hospitals on phone get her here asap mum being her self is in town shopping not knowing a thing .she is now in hospital hooked up to an iv drip still protesting she is fine. god help[ the nurses just been in to see her and she said she'll be out on monday. i asked if the doc had told her that she said no but so what .i'm thinking i'll have too take all her clothes home just to keep her their.she's also had injection in her stomach to get her bonemorrow working .when is she going to acept that she is ill and stop putting on a brave face .my hairs gone grey over night worring about her so i've dyed it pink and mum quite likes it she is defo not her self .just need someone to tell me it's fine even if it isn't.thanks all for reading i do go on i know xxxx sarah

18 days after first cemo

2010-04-15T07:54:55Z

mums hair has started to come out so i see a trip to the hair dresses to get the wig styled on our list of things to do.she's finely had a poo her words were that it was the biggest poo she had ever seen .problem was she was at the doctors at the time and worried it might block the toilet thankfully that was not the case lol.doc says she has a sinues infection and given her anitbiotics but is worried about her thyroid so more blood tests to day .still got a very low temperture but this could be because of her thyriod but apert from that her spirts are high .my brother just anounced he is getting married again so a new outfit and hat are on the cards.back for more cemo on thursday at least now we no what to expect but i know she could be worse this time but got every thing in place to make sure we can deal with whatevers throw our way .chins up and smiles on our face and loads of laughter and the love of family and friends ooh and chocolate xx

7 days after first cemo

2010-04-07T14:36:43Z

day 7 ,mums not feeling too bad the sicky feeling has passed but still abit consipated but not to bad.went to nottingham today to get her a wig and some soft tubans she's just got to get her friend whos a hairdresser to style it a bit .shes so used to been out and about think it's getting her down a bit but she knows when shes tired she really does need to rest .

results

2010-04-02T08:05:49Z

scans were clear thank god but treatment has been changed as the p.c.t refused herceptin before her surgery but she can have it after .so now shes on fec for six cycles before surgery .had first one yesterday so now were on the road to recovery .met some lovely ladys yesterday and it really helped my mum knowing shes not on her own they seem like a right bunch of jokers had me and mum in stiches it was more like a chimps tea party than a cemo session .

can't sleep so worried

2010-03-31T22:56:32Z

tomorrow we find out if mums cancer has spread she has a 9* 8 cm mass in her left breast aswell as her lympnodes shes had no surgrey as they want to start cemo asap her2 +3 positive all greek to me doctor thinks her rash is hives brought on by stress can well belive it .i'm going out of my head with worrie and it's not me who's ill .finished my jack d but i know thats not going to help .don't what too worry my husband as we've been together since we were 16 and he's spent over half his life living with my mum and cares about her as she was his own .i'm trying so hard to be strong for everyone but it is so hard ,putting on a brave face for the kids is o.k because at the moment nan still looks great .i'm sorry if i'm going on a bit but i find it helpful to write all down even the spelling mistakes never was that good but who cares .thank to all who read this it means so much to know ypur out their god bless xxxxx

what next

2010-03-30T18:36:01Z

been a long day mums got a rash been for the bone scan but she had the rash before so it can't be that .went straight to the docs after hospital and she's unsure what it is and phoned the cemo unit as mums got to start taking her steroids tomorrow ready for thursday and she doesn't want her taking them if her treatment won't go ahead .so sat here now waiting for the call just hope its nothing that will delay her treatment any longer fingers crossed.

talking about funerals

2010-03-29T19:44:48Z

just sat on the sofa today having a coffee and chat to mum and she starts telling me what songs she want at her funeral nearly choked on my coffee i know she like's to be organized but this..... think maybe she's jumping the gun as yet we don't know the all the results .i know me and my dad used to talk about what he wanted when he past but he knew it would happen soon and didn't want to upset my mum and because we were so close it was just easier to tell me .but when it came too it my brothers and sister took over not even knowing what he wanted just didn't want to listern to me .so maybe she's telling me now so she get's what she wants how ever many years it maybe .i told her to write it all down and i'll make it happen no matter what anyone else has to say about it .apart from that we had a good day went to work together in the morning then she when it to town to meet her friends coffee and cake then her nails done .

busy week ahead D-DAY

2010-03-28T09:33:09Z

going to see the nurses on the cemo unit tommorow not really sure what will happen .mum's got her bone scan on tuesday and on thursday we see the doc for results of her bone scan and ct before her cemo she also got an e.c.g at 1pm everythings upin the air can't see how she will start treatment if they don't really know what their dealing with until thay have all her results .she already thinks the worsed and has said if it has spread that it 's no treatment as she doesn't see the point and would rarther just get on with it.NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THAT but will continue to suport her in any way she needs it's her chose and i'll repect what ever she says.

test run wig

2010-03-25T17:02:13Z

finished the decorating looks great mum and me had a great time singing along to abba .went into town today and bought a wig too practice with 15 pounds bargin.im going too wear it and test drive it so mum will no what she can and can't do in it to avoid any embarssment an her behalf .just been round too show my friend and her husband and they thought it look great the kids thougth i was a bit weird lol .its quirte heavy as well but an sure it will feel ok after a while .

painting the house

2010-03-24T06:55:52Z

today we are decorating my mums granny flat next door .she says she needs it looking nice for when she gets visiters i did say people will be coming to see her and not care what her house looks like as it already looks like a show home ,but she want's it done so will do it. it's just the way she is and i love her for it .she brought some funky headscalfs yesterday and thinks see looks like hulk hogan that made us laugh just hope she keeps her sence of humour because i have a feeling we'll need it.

ct scan

2010-03-23T07:04:13Z

Today we going to have my mums ct scan

getting organized

2010-03-22T13:10:56Z

just bought a five year diary totally not like me, since my dad died i take everyday at a time and don't really plan. But now with appointment and treatment i need to be more organized for my mum, as she's just been diagnosed with breast cancer .