six months on.....

2009-08-20T16:27:20Z

Hi everyone, haven't visited for a while as we've been really busy with everyday life. Mum has now been living with us since february and we treasure each and every day. She is slowly deteriorating daily now, she gets weaker and now hasn't eaten for over three weeks, she lives on supplement drinks and coffee! She remains positive although she is now obviously in some pain but being the person she is , she still tries to hide it. It's been a tough journey for all, my teenage son had a 'wobbly' time of it a couple of months back and had drink problems and behaviour issues all connected with the thought of losing his much beloved nanny. We all deal with it differently I guess, some days I cope and some days I want to scream to the roof tops at how unfair everything is. I love the chats I have with my mum and these will remain with me for ever. My love and best wishes go to all those who have lost loved ones recently and to those newly diagnosed, keep your strength and never give up. Mum was given weeks to live in Feb and she is still here. It's her 65th birthday next week and I never thought she would make it. I feel the need to be proactive so I have decided to do the Farleigh Hospice cycle for Life, I didn't run the race for life shamefully although I sponsored everyone that asked and fully supported it!! So I am being really cheeky and asking if anyone would like to sponsoe me to cycle 20K to help raise funds for the Hospice. It is the Essex equivilant of Macmillan, so it enables the nurses to do their jobs etc. I already have a standing order for cancer support and give to Macmillan regularly but this is another way to help. If you feel like donating you can do so on line at www.justgiving.com/Lynne-Baines and then donate on line so its totally secure!! Not sure if I'm allowed to do this on here or not but if you don't ask you don't get!!! Made my mum laugh at the thought of me on a bike~ haven't riden one for years! I will keep you posted about my bottom!!!!! Thank you if you do and don't worry if you don't, we all have our daily problems and issues to deal with but without Macmillan or farleigh I don't know how I would get through each day yet alone my mum!!!!! xxxxxxxxx bye for now Lynnex

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2009-01-05T13:17:19Z

Hi to all who read this..I'm new to this and just felt the urge to say how much reading everyone elses blogs helps get through. My mum has the lung cancer and I'm just trying to get my head round everything from finances, living arrangements and every day living. I have five children and live 50 miles away from mum, she was diagnosed in October and has declined rapidly since, she has oxygen at night and cant go anywhere unaccompanied. She lives in a second story flat so im trying to move her in with us. Trouble is, she is in complete denial which makes everything so much harder, not that its easy of course, it just makes me feel like the worst person ever for the thoughts I have in my head..anyone else out there with that?? You try talking funerals, wills and debt to someone who has their head buried in the sand..i I dont want to have the conversation anymore than she does, but I feel like I've lost my mum already, she is tired all the time and obviously not willing to admit that she feels it. I feel like I want to bury my head and have everything go away but I cant do that. You read all the other blogs and my heart goes out to everyone but also my heart soars when I read the positive comments from sufferers and families alike, its good to know we are not alone out there but also such a shame there are so damned many of us.

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six months on.....

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