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2010-06-19T20:56:17Z

Hi, I am Julie, my Mum used to call me Loulabell when I was little. My Mum has advanced lung cancer, we have known since the end of March and life has changed irrevocably since her diagnosis. I was moved to join you tonight as my visit with her this evening broke my heart and I don't know how to help her. She was so very low and has been so strong till now. She feels she has no control over her life and emotions, she had chemo last week and was on a high for a few days and now she has sunk like a stone.....Her words, "I don't want to do this any more, it is too hard, I hate not having control over my emotions, I just want to cry all the time"

I feel so useless, I can't make her feel better. I love her so much and life without her is unimaginable. We don't know how long she has...months not years we know that much.

I have a loving husband and two beautiful boys aged 9 and 6 and they adore her too. I have a sister who is 42 and she has just had a still birth, a beautiful baby boy who died when she was 39 weeks pregnant.....Mum was so looking forward to the birth. She has 5 grandchildren and 2 great grandchildren at the young age of 65. She was working fulltime till her diagnosis. I am rambling so I will stop for now

xxxxx

Loulabell aka Julie

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