https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/lorraine/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-11-09T18:10:28Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/lorraine/posts/lost2009-11-09T17:10:28Z2009-11-09T17:10:28Z<p><strong><em>I had breast cancer 2 years ago. I was 32 weeks pregnant when I found out, I had also just come out of hospital a few days before I found out with phnumonia and a collapsed lung.</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>The day i found out I had breast cancer I was on my own, and instantly threw up.</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>I wasnt scared as I had the new baby to think about.</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>I moved 150 miles the same week to be with my new partner, ( babies father ) </em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>From there things went from bad to worse.</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>I feel I have coped well, but now 2 years down the line, I am really struggling, mind wise, I feel low, tired, crying all the time, ugly, poor excuse for a mother and so on.</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>I have been trying to get in to some sort of counselling, but really dont know where to start.</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>I just want to ball my eyes out now, but I cant because my children are about, &#39;sigh&#39;</em></strong></p> <p><strong><em>Well looks like I will just have to plod on, hoping these horrible feelings go away.</em></strong></p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=270105&AppID=30128&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember