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loolabelles dad 2

2011-07-05T09:08:06Z

My dads being transferred to another hospital tomorrow for a pap (?) scan. He's then coming back to original hospital. The nurses are being wonderful. They're putting a bed in my dads room so my mum can stop tonight and tomorrow night.

He's had loads of visitors which is really helping him. I just wish this week was over, but then I don't in case he doesn't make it through whatever op they end up doing on Thursday.

I've got to sort out his benefits this week. That'll be fun!

I had a few tears on Sunday morning. Now I'm back to being numb. I was even numb when my dad asked a friend to do his funeral. I can even laugh at stuff. is that normal?

Loolabelles dad.

2011-07-03T08:42:33Z

I don't know if i'm using this site right. I've got blogs and comments all over the place. Sort of sounds like my family at the moment.

My dad reacted to the news well on Thursday. on Friday it hit him. It broke my heart to hear him cry and say he had so much he needed to tell his 6 year old grandson.

Your emotions and thoughts fly all over the place don't they? Yesterday we were talking about a big family holiday in a couple of years. I just pray the op they can do is the one that will give him a few years.

Next year is my parents ruby anniversary. He's got to be here for that.

I've still not cried. Does that make me heartless? I'm trying to be strong for my mum, dad and 2 sisters. My brothers like me (unless he's cried in private). I can't explain how i'm feeling, numb I suppose. I keep thinking there's no need to cry unless we know something definite and at the moment all we know is that he has cancer in his right femur which has in all likely hood come from his kidney cancer that he had a few years ago. I just wish we knew which one of the 3 options they are going to do. It's all waiting and it's doing my head in!

Not what we expected

2011-07-01T07:32:09Z

My dads op was meant to be yesterday. After working in the morning I went up to my mums with my sister and 2 nephews. We'd just made a drink when my dad phoned us and said we needed to get there quick.

The anaethetist said because of my dads history and the fact his 1 kidney is only working to a third of its capacity things are bad. They think the tumour in his femur is from the kidney and its aggressive. We have 3 options.

1. Do nothing and the femur will snap within 48 - 72 hours if he comes home and the pain will kill him.

2. Insert the rod in his femur but this will spread the cancer and he'll die before christmas.

3. Have a complete new femur and hip fitted. He might not make the op but if he does he will have 5 - 6 years.

We decided on option 3 only to be told that they need to do a scan to see if the cancer has spread into the surrounding tissue and muscle. If so they can only do option 2.

I'm numb. I haven't been able to cry at all. Bad news keeps on coming. It helps being able to write things down, thank you for listening to me ramble x

Bad news

2011-06-28T15:08:41Z

We finally got the results of my dads bone scan. It appears there is a hot spot in his right femur. Basically its cancer thats come from his kidney. The doctor rang today to tell us and that my dad had to go straight to hospital to have pins put in his leg as it could break at any time. I'm sat waiting for my husband to pick me up to take me to the hospital. In a way it's a relief because at least now we know what is causing all the pain. Does that sound bad or selfish?

Mixed news

2011-06-13T17:31:29Z

We've had good news. It seems my dads kidney cancer isn't back. But the pain he's been getting in his hips isn't good news. We thought it was arthritis and that he would need a hip op but the scan was clear. There was no wear and tear on his hip. The consultant thinks its bone cancer. He has to go for a blood test tomorrow.

I feel numb and don't know what to think at the moment. My mum is distraught. I'm trying to reassure her that we don't know for definite but it's hard. I guess we just have to wait which is one of the hardest things about cancer.

My dads cancer may be back

2011-05-16T20:56:17Z

My dad was diagnosed with kidney cancer four years ago. It was totally by accident it was discovered. It was also discovered he only had one functioning kidney, the other was like a shrivelled walnut. Of course the cancer was in his good kidney. He decided to have cryopathy, which was a relatively new treatment. The tumour was frozen and died. It went successfully but we were told that it could come back.

I've found out today that he has been passing blood in his urine. He has been to the doctors and the GP is concerned, He is writing to his consultant for an appointment asap.

I have two younger sisters and an older brother. One of my sisters gave birth to a little boy on Saturday and I am so scared my dad won't see him grow up.I know I may be worrying needlessly but hey you all know what its like.

I was browsing on the laptop and came across this site. The stories i've read have inspired me so I thought I would join. Thanks for letting me put some feelings into words.