Moving on...

2009-09-25T19:25:27Z

Ive been a member of this site for a couple of days now, its been a revelation and I am constantly reminded of that old addage, " you dont have to look very far to find people worse off than yourself". How true, ive been in the chat room and enjoyed some insane conversations. Ive read some sad profiles and a lot of people are facing situations that I would not like to face, but I still have my worries, I wish in a way that it was just the AML and the depression but its not and I cant seem to summon the courage to talk about it on this site. I just dont think this is the vehicle for these types of problems. Everyone has been so kind on this site, it does give me hope. Thank you all who have commented, PM said hello in the chat rooms, you have all helped me and shown me that I can move forward and I can help others too. Helping others has been a big part of my life and I have decided that allthough I cant work as a nurse I can still care and help those around me. Once again thanks to all for your kind messages. xoxoxoxox

Justice

2009-09-23T16:10:57Z

I think that in writing this blog it may help me rationalise my life, I cant go the GP's for help and yet I know I need it. Its been a tough few years and getting AML has been just part of my problems. I am so sad and afraid and really wish I had the guts to end it all, but Im just a coward. I cant keep all this insiide amymore and Im sorry if this upsets people but I have to get it out.

I cant write it all at one time so Il think I will have to do it in episodes but where do I start.

Lippy

Moving on...

Justice