https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/limbo/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2010-10-19T11:38:15Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/limbo/posts/waiting2010-10-19T10:38:15Z2010-10-19T10:38:15Z<p>Well, it been over 3 months since i lost my Mum, and i am waiting for it to get better! I have been having a few more better days than sad days but am so very frustrated that i can&#39;t be strong and i can be fine one minute then bawling the next.</p> <p>Driving is worse, when my mind is clear and then i start thinking and crying. And fantasising that if i just drive past her house she will be sat in the window doing her bit for neighbourhood watch as she liked to say.</p> <p>I have so many questions in my head, about her treatment?why did they miss the&nbsp;additional kidney cancer? why did they miss the perforated bowel at the&nbsp;chemo clinic? &nbsp;why we were never told that without treatment she only had 3 months to live, did she know? </p> <p>I am a wreck and am fed up of it!</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=377193&AppID=31224&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember