Rollercoaster again ???

2008-10-09T17:04:49Z

Well its what we all dread and hope never happens but looks like Im back on the rollercoaster again! Havent felt well for weeks, and couldnt exactly put my finger on it but as we all know we know our own bodies pretty well. After much harrassment from members of this site ( who will remain unamed!) lol I made an appointment with my gp yesterday. Outcome, lots of blood taken - (at least 4 blackpuddings worth) some tamazapan to help me sleep and an urgent referal back to breast clinic. Ok I thought nothing really bad, everything will be Ok. Got home today after a lovely lunch with my boss and his wife and my mother telling me a lovely lady called Catherine rang 3 times, left a number but wouldnt say what it was about. Call her back - gp - breast clinic wednesday ;0( My feelings........ calm at the moment. Everything lately has been getting back on track. Felt better as a person, confidence was coming back. Even stopped thinking about bloody C when I woke up every morning!!! Anyway I am determined not to let it get me down - its the waiting again that makes me upset and as soon as I know what is wrong I can deal with it - might be nothing!!!......however Im away next week so wont be going to appointment so its the following. What !!! I hear Lanzy and Jayne cry....get your arse there now girl!!! Im a stubborn bint as you all know ......... ;0) Anyway feel better getting that off my chest - oh the puns Dave of Formby where are you my darlin!!! - Ill keep you updated L xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

The word "fine"

2008-09-01T17:01:19Z

Do you know Ive been on this forum since the start, posted, contributed to posts etc but never actually written a blog so here goes!! Well all in all this part has taken nearly 2 months.. 2 ultrasounds, me refusing to have the second one before enjoying my holidays didnt help, and lots of falling out with doctors "admin" !! Keeping it short, as those that know me know I tend to go on a bit.... and on...and on ;0) my ultrasound results are seemigly "fine". This was left as a garbled message on my mobile and as "they" are on holiday I cant call back. Seemingly the results will be with my gp in about 3 weeks. OK OK I should be delighted the cancer hasnt spread. Thats what "fine" means isnt it ? Or is it ? You get my drift? I think all of us who are touched by cancer will always feel scared and need the reassurance not just a 3 second answering machine message. Anyway been thinking about it all today, feeling a bit low etc etc then thought no lesley "fine" is brilliant news! Picked girls up from school.....more than just "fine". Laughed with them......"fine" is now wonderful. Going out with my wee cancer buddy from original diagnosis tonight for dinner......fan bliddy tastic - we both beat the bliddy thing! Guess what Im trying to say apart from clear my head is that Im more than "fine" and my life is more than "fine". Im alive, I have such a wonderful support group of friends and family and here of course ;0) And having that makes me realise I can deal with anything thats thrown at me. Enjoy it friends because as we know it can be so short and taken away at a moments notice. Lesley ;0) xxxx PS Wont be making a habit of a blog (not intending to bore you too often..... hears sighs of relief all round....yes Lanzy I heard it!!!)just a wee thankyou to all the good friends I have made on here and who have been brill this last while even when Ive been a moddy bugger!! xxxxxxxxxx

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Rollercoaster again ???

The word "fine"