Kezzerbird....It was 4.30 in the morning!!!!!!

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It was 4.30 in the morning when I finally got into my lovely king size bed. I found the energy to go to the club. When I arrived there with my beautiful daughter, the first one I met was one of my old door crew, it was great to see him, so there was I being cuddled by a young handsome cage fighter!!!!! In fact the entire night I was being cuddled by handsome young guys, I can deal with that, thankfully I haven't got any hormones now, so the old blood pressure stayed stable. It was a night of 'Are you better now' and when are you coming back to work' I now leave them blissfully unaware of my situation, they all seem to believe that I will beat cancer and be ok, I guess I should be grateful that they have so much confidence in my abilities to beat anything!!!!!!!!

I can't wait to be able to return to work and if this new chemo works this time maybe, just maybe, I will be able to dust off my bitch belt and my bouncers uniform and get on with doing what I do best and hopefully I will be in work longer than the 5 months like last time before the crap starts all over again, then i will be a very happy bird. Not looking forward to Tuesday and starting chemo yet again but it has to be done,it is another 6 months but I am used to it now, I could write a book on it (Oh I am writing a book on it!!!) It says that I shouldn't loose my hair this time, which means I shall be bald as a badgers arse again, I like doing things oppisite to everyone else, but that is just me!!!!! I shall be invading Leicester at the end of the month and meeting some of you guys from the site, I can't wait, something I need to do really badly and I will have to try and behave myself, luckily I am house trained!!!!!! Well guys I must get off my bum and finish my house work and sort out my crazy animals. Love and hugs to those who want them...the I stayed sober Kezzer...Carol xx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Yo Carol...Send me some of your energy...can.t seem to find mine these days!!!!!....gonna be keeping my fingers crossed for you on tuesday that there are little side effects.. if any.. for you this time around....

                             love and hugs johnb...xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Carol,

    Am loving the young handsome guy cuddles how lovely and how wonderful for you that you are surrounded by such positive people!

    I feel for you starting chemo again, nasty, but you are an amazing woman and of course you know that we'll all help you through the next days and weeks ahead x

    Stay strong, love and gentle hugs,

    Alex xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Glad you had a good time Carol I knew you would. MMMMM A young cage fighter, could do with an Alex Reed myself, move over Jordan LOL

    Seriously I am sorry that you need to start chemo again on tuesday. I will be thinking about you and sending you lots and lots of positive vibes to help you through it all.

    Lots of Love Julie X

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Oh John, if I had spare energy I would gladly give you some, I actually don't have very much but I force myself to do the things I do, believe me I would stay in bed for most of my time if I didn't kick my own butt and go out!!!!! Alex and Julie...I am good, don't feel sorry that I have to have more chemo, blimey girls, I have had 17 of the worst chemos in a year and a half and this one is supposed to be a gentler one (believe it when I see it LOL), I am still here, still fighting and still positive xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi kezzerbird, I know just what you mean about kicking your own butt........... I am the same at the mo. We have to keep positive and fight as hard as we can...............

    Love and hugs and hope the chemo goes well

    Karen xxx