Probably not the best time to write this, but i know some of you have been wondering where i have been. I have been in hospital with my partner Jools ( julian) for the past 11 days. As some of you know he has head and neck cancer and has had two operations, and was then deemed terminal in January. On the 2nd of Feb things went all pear shaped and to cut a long story short, he heamorraged losing most of the blood out of his body and was given 1hour to live. In typical Jools style, he was having none of that and is still with us.........critically ill still.....but has now been moved to a hospice. He is the bravest person i have ever come across, with determination that is unbelievable. The consultants etc cant understand how he has survived it. Even the staff from all over the hospital have come to see him as they have never known anyone with such a bleed to survive. We have been told it is likely to happen again, but until then we will carry on smiling and laughing through whatever comes our way. Together now we are planning his funeral as he "wants it his way". It is hard talking about things but at the end of the day its good to know, and to be given this extra oppertunity, to give him chance to plan things as he would like them.
I am feeling really jittery tonight as this is the first time i have left his side. I have had to come home to get some sleep as i cant go on any longer without. I am not an overly religious person, but i would ask of you all to send him loving thoughts at this time. Love to you all JK KATHRYN XX
