Swings and roundabouts

2009-02-03T10:40:04Z

Well - the snow seemed to be the final blow - is everything conspiring agaiinst me!!! I was supposed to be going to see the Cardiologist today and to have a scan to check what was happening to the fluid I have/had round my heart - that was as a result of my first medical "event" (if we can have a snow event - I can have a medical one, or two). First "event" was open heart surgery (end August last year) to replace my Aortic valve with one donated by a pig! (never expected that one either!) Just getting over that when I had the second "event" a pericardial effusion I had somehow managed to store up 2 litres of fluid in the sac round my heart so was effectively crushing it - it must be the yorkshire in me that doesn't like parting with anything! - but had to let go of it (with the assistance of some very large syringes and a man with an ultrasound machine- it occured to me that it was very similar to operating one of those machines in a fairground - the ones where you have to operate a arm which "grabs" a cuddly toy), After recovering I was celebrating my return imminent return to work when the "lump" appeared. - well I expect it may have been there a while but had got overlooked in the middle of all the other stuff! Live in the countryside - no real neighbours and my husband is working away house is down a steep driveway with a hairpin bend in it - it is so pretty - but absolutely terrible when we get any snow. Tried to get out this morning but after doing some not so graceful pirouettes (just had to look the spelling up of that one) I decided that I wasn't going anywhere in a hurry - the hospital is twenty miles away and I can do without stressing myself about getting there, I'm going back in on Friday morning to have the rest of my lymph nodes removed (7 out of 7 taken for biopsy were positive) and a bit more from my left breast - just to make sure the margins are good enough. Then off for a visit to the oncologist in a few weeks to decide the chemo etc.... I live in a lovely area with amazing scenery right out of my window - and I realised that it may be cold - I may be feeling extremely frustrated after having to re-arrange my medical appointments, none of which I ever really wanted anyway - who wants heart problems and then bc? But, I have lit the fire, got a book, stroked the dogs and made myself a hot chocolate and the world doesn't seem such a bad place after all and it's so beautiful outside - more so when I'm snug and warm!!

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Swings and roundabouts