ihatethisworld

crying all the time

2010-05-31T17:46:42Z

when will the pain of loss stop, all im doing is crying and feeling very lost, have tried to keep myself busy but it only lasts for a while, just having a very bad time, why did he have to leave me! feeling so down .....x

sad day

2010-05-23T17:52:20Z

hi all my hubby lost his fight this morning 22 may 2010 at 12-15 am it was very peaceful, just got home after spending 5 days in hospital with him, at least he is at peace now, will try bloging again soon love and hugs to you all

love sandra.............xxx

so low

2010-05-06T13:16:36Z

hi all, tim seems to be having a few bad days starting yesterday, he was not his normal self? his breathing has got a lot worse and he goes vacant staring into space and his eyes roll, we called the district nurse to day ! his ankles have swollen up and he was worried about DVT again even though he has daily injections, so she said if it gets worse to call an ambulance, speak to you all soon

sandra.....xxx

friendship

2010-05-05T11:30:53Z

LOL

2010-05-04T21:02:47Z

my hubby just had me in stiches, he said bloody chemo and radiotherapy have robbed him of his sense of smell and sense of taste, but it ant having my bloody sense of humor!!!! sorry just thought id share this, he has a wicked possitive attitude.

love and hugs

sandra....xxx

hello

2010-05-03T10:16:22Z

had a better night sleep! tim only woke me at 6am...which is a miracle for him...lol, so weve had best night yet...(long may it stay) the sun is shining brightly and he wants to go take his battery off his bike, so hes gonna potter about doing his thing, im stuck indoors doing housework , hope you all have a good day.

hugs and love

sandra & tim xxx

tired

2010-05-02T12:36:36Z

god i wish we could have a whole nights sleep...lol im gonna have to get some diffrent lightbulbs, casue when tim turns his lamp on im awake, and im getting grumpy, is this normal? or is it my age...lol, still thinking positive, his tumor has gone down a little as we can see it on his back, now im just rambling....sorry.....

sandra & tim.....xxx

wow!!!!

2010-05-01T09:28:38Z

what a day yesterday! the phone didnt stop!!! first it was the social worker anne! then the lung cancer specialist from bolton christine! then it was the district nurse audrey(my fav one) but she had been out that morning and was ringing to check we were ok? then tims mum rang, then, our friends rang, im more tired from answering the phone than looking after tim...lol, but its nice that everyone cares and checks up on us, still not got any L plates, tims asleep and im just ploding about trying not to make to much noise, its nice that hes sleeping , hes making up for the times when he didnt sleep...lol

hugs and love to you all

sandra & tim.....xxx

GOOD MORNING

2010-04-30T09:37:22Z

hi all just to let you all know , tim had radiotherapy yesterday, it seems to have had a very possitive affect on him , and he slept for 5 hours which for him is GOOD....LOL.....hes back for chemo on the 10th may, and hes still smiling , he wont be when i take him out in his wheelchair....LOL.where we waited so long for patient transport yesterday the nursing manager said we need to get you home as tim was so tired , they got us a taxi home to bolton, i am so greatful for this .....love and hugs to you all

sandra & tim......xxx

just some words....x

2010-04-28T11:54:34Z

"Love is not a thing to understand.
Love is not a thing to feel.
Love is not a thing to give and receive.
Love is a thing only to become
And eternally be. ."

phone call

2010-04-28T11:45:41Z

we have just had a call from the christie, to say tim starts his radiotherapy tomorrow, that was quick as i only got him back yesterday...lol so early one tomorrow transport is coming at 8.50 so il have to get organised to night, im taking tim out in his chair in about an hour god help him .....lol

speak soon

sandra & tim...xxxxxxxxxx

whoop! whoop!

2010-04-27T18:04:50Z

hooray my tim is home, we have decided were gonna switch off all the phones and enjoy a calm peaceful night just the two of us.....im on cloud 9 and hes so happy to be home.....still need to get my L plates...LOL, love and gentle((((hugs)))) to u all

sandra......xxx

the sun is shining

2010-04-27T06:36:13Z

MORNING!!!! how is everyone on this sunny morning, im having another possitive day!, fingers crossed tim will be home to day, he rang me at 7am full of beans, which has a possitive effect on me! , if anyone ever has to go to the christie for treatment, you couldnt be in better hands!!!, radiotherapy should start at the end of the week if not monday, cant wait to go see my hubby and his happy smiling face........gentle hugs, and love to you all.......picking up wheelchair today and il get my L plates....lol

sandra....x

still home waiting for delivery

2010-04-26T12:13:14Z

hi all mri scan results back, not good but were thinking possitive, mri revealed cancer has gone to spine, so no chemo but gonna start radiotherapy asap, at least we know now the waiting is the worst, had to rely on hubby ringing me as im at home waiting for oxygen to be delivered so he can come home, so thought id blog and let u all know, have also hired a wheelchair for him from red cross, lucky its near to halfords il stop off and get my L plates....LOL......hope you all have a good day and gentle hugs to those in pain.

sandra........xxxxxxxxxx

what a great day

2010-04-25T19:56:09Z

another great day , even if it was raining...hubby is in great spirits, and not the drinking one...lol he must be due to come home as when i got home there was a card for home oxygen service , so they are coming tomorrow it better be early as i need to be at hospital....all in all a very possitive day.....

sandra.....xxx