This is just to tell my story and ask for people to talk to me about it, I am 18 so if ere is anyone of a similar age living with a relative with cancer, but all people I am grateful to talk tohttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/i_hope_i_can_find_the_help_i_need/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2010-04-09T01:40:58Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/i_hope_i_can_find_the_help_i_need/posts/who-do-i-tell2010-04-09T00:40:58Z2010-04-09T00:40:58Z<p>I haven&#39;t got the blog naming yet so sorry for any deception. I have just oined this in the hope to find someone with similar experiences to me. Last year I lost my grandparents to cancer and i was deeply affected, especially as I was very close to my grandmother, for the past year, my mam has also been battling cancer that started in the kidney and is now affecting her lungs.</p> <p>I often talk things out with my dad, and he is trying his best to prepare me but all i can think is, i&#39;m going to lose my mam and often feel I am either being over sensitive or I myself am thinking the worst. My brother is moving out and rarely shows an interest in what is happening with my mam which really makes me angry.</p> <p>I didn&#39;t think i was affected as much but I have horrible nightmares and cannot eat properly and just cry a lot. I fear I am going to lose my boyfriend incase he doesn&#39;t understand so I need someone on here I can offload to and ep the very thin bonds that I feel my family have left when it comes to discussion</p> <p>Thankyou </p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=330100&AppID=30616&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember