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COLLATERAL DAMAGE

2021-01-03T19:37:00Z

I’m feeling a little dark and even bitter today. Those of us waiting for life-saving cancer surgery or treatment are experiencing cancellations and indefinitely long waiting times. We are the invisible collateral damage in this pandemic. I spok...(read more)

WAITING ...

2020-12-31T18:44:00Z

Waiting, waiting, waiting. At times, it’s unbearable. I’ve known I had cancer since the end of October. I’ve jumped through all the hoops, done all the tests, and waited. Tomorrow is January and I’m still waiting. This has to ...(read more)

POCKETS OF SANITY

2020-12-30T18:55:00Z

In midst of all the panic, terror, catastrophe thinking, sleeplessness, bouts of sobbing, and more, something in me has remained surprisingly sane. Something small but steady has a what to do. One thing it knew to do was martial a support netwo...(read more)

TAILSPIN AND CATASTROPHE THINKING

2020-12-29T06:55:00Z

Some part of me went into ‘catastrophe overdrive’ in those days after the scan. I consulted a solicitor to write a will, pulled out of a house purchase, signed up for Amazon Prime, ordered supplements, gave up coffee, alcohol, sugar. I ev...(read more)

EARLY SIGNS

2020-12-28T22:49:00Z

Could I have caught this earlier? I can’t help asking the question. Were there signs and symptoms that I missed? I’ve always trusted my body to know what it’s doing. I didn’t get freaked out by menopause. Changes are what we w...(read more)