https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/heartbroken/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2011-01-05T21:38:19Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/heartbroken/posts/hi-i-am-new-here2011-01-05T20:38:19Z2011-01-05T20:38:19Z<p>My mother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer&nbsp; in 1995. At the time I was 16 and was caring for her and my young brother who was 3 - She was having treatment but passed away in July 1997 - Even though i was her carer my mum kept a lot hidden from me and have never really found peace since she passed away -&nbsp;&nbsp; I was totally unprepared for her passing away - </p> <p>I think I found this chrsitmas especially hard and I am not full understanding why - I just miss her.</p> <p>Recently I seem to be drawn to people who have been recently affected&nbsp; and I have been listening alot but have not felt able to share my words openly with anyone.....</p> <p>Love silver</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=394018&AppID=31383&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember