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2010

2009-12-31T16:50:11Z

Well my dear friends, 2009 is drawing to a close and I for one am not sorry. For me and my family it was one of the worst years we have experienced. We lost many family members and friends this year through various causes. I know that we are not alone in our torment and would like to thank everyone for their unending support and love. Likewise I would like to extend my support and love to all of you who are affected in whatever way by this terrible illness. Let us hope that sooner rather than later there is some sort of breakthrough which would help in early treatment or even total prevention of ALL cancers. It is too late for my family members but I am certain they would wish for others to benefit from such things.

Let us go into 2010 with hope, because without hope we are lost.

God bless you all and may you have the best New Year you can.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Happy Birthday Ray x x x

2009-09-26T09:00:00Z

Today, it is my darling Ray's birthday. He would have been 55 if he had made it to this day. Why is life so cruel as to rob a person of all the years they should have been enjoying.

So Ray, because I am unable to say this to you in person I will do it here.

As you sit amongst the Angels,

Please listen to my prayer

I want to say "I love you"

and wish that you were here.

So if you have seen this post

One thing I have to say

I love you with all my heart

and wish you 'happy birthday".

The kids and I are going out later to honour the day with a few drinks at the place where we all used to meet up for any gatherings which involved drinking. It will I am sure be a very emotional time but we cannot just let this day go by unobserved can we?

Birthday.... Happy or sad??

2009-07-13T11:59:11Z

Well, it is now 13th July and yesterday it was my birthday. It was also 19 weeks since my darling Ray relocated to heaven. It was a very difficult day as I kept becoming very tearful and didn't want to cry. My eldest son Stuart was with me for most of the day. When we got up, we had a bacon butty (I never eat breakfast normally). Then I went off to the Sunday church service and he went off on a practice run (he is doing the Snowdonia Marathon later in the year). Met my dad at church and he came back with me before going on his weekly pilgrimage to visit mum's resting place. Stuart and I spent the afternoon relaxing and enjoying each other's company. The family met up early evening and went to an Italian Restaurant for dinner. Everything was fine until the meal came and then ooooh dear the tears threatened so I had to excuse myself until I was more composed. We did have a good time with lots of laughs but there was an underlying air of sadness in the air. We will have looked just like any other party out to enjoy themselves but were each hurting in our own way. I have the most amazing and supportive family but I do not like letting them see me upset as I find it embarrassing to actually show visually how I am feeling. (Do as I say not as I do is my motto). Having said that, sometimes it is just too hard to control. On an upbeat note, I have just found out that my niece has had a son born today at around 11.30am. I am thrilled and it is just the thing that is needed to give my mum-in-law a lift because she has been very 'down' this last couple of weeks. So my friends, thank you for all your support over the past few months it means such a lot to me. Take care and be good x x Tricia xx "Ray, I will love you always and forever"

After the Marathon

2009-04-27T13:35:58Z

Well, it is the day after the Marathon. All the build up and hard work has paid off. Jennifer (my daughter) and travelled on the train to London on Saturday morning. We arrived around 12:15. After eventually purchasing our travel passes, we braved the underground to get us from Kings Cross train station to St.Paul's. The hotel was about 200yards from St.Paul's cathedral. After meeting with Stuart and Kayo, we had lunch and then they set off to look for rings. Jennifer and I went into the cathedral and I nearly had a heart attack at the prices they charged for entry.... £11 each. Forget that. I was not that bothered to spend the next few hours in there on such a lovely day. (but I so wanted to light candles). Out of one door............. into another. Found a small chapel in there where we could go light candles, ask for prayers for private intentions and generally have a quiet moment if needed. (so candles lit. prayers requested. we went on our way). We decided to do some touristy things like crossing millenium bridge and walking along the embankment etc. We then had to make our way to the tube station again to get to see my nephew in Walton-on-Thames. I think that he and his wife thought they were feeding an army of people but there were only 6 of us lol. Sooooooo much food. Neela the baby (7 months old) was gorgeous but not happy if mummy and daddy were not in full view lol. She no longer looks like a bush baby but still has lovely eyes. Sunday morning, early start. Had to find somewhere to stand so that we could see Stuart on the way out and on the way back. Fantastic, good vantage point. Mile 13 oooops there he goes (nearly missed him). the atmosphere was amazing. So many good causes. MacMillan had hundreds of runners raising money for them and that is wonderful but I was glad that Stuart was running for St.Gemma's as I feel that the small charities do get forgotten. Two girls at the side of us were shouting encouragement to everyone. I got caught up in it all. Whooping and shouting encouragement especially if people looked tired. Now as they all return at mile 22 a different story. So many despondant and very tired people. Nel McAndrews passed right by me. One poor guy practically pleaded for the banana my nephew was holding out for Stuart. Of course he was given it. Oooh there is Stuart. Not looking happy. Apparently had to slow down as his leg was cramping quite badly. Still good time though. Well after he had gone passed we tried to get to the tube station. mmmm....................... not much chance there. Only thing was to walk............. good job I am fairly fit lol. The walk to Traffalgar Square took us along the embankment. Great atmosphere everyone clapping and cheering for the participants. Finally met up with Stuart and Kayo. I am so proud of him. We all got very emotional (thinking about Ray) and I guess for Stuart it was an anti-climax after all his hard work. Next we went on to an after race party run by Unilever (who Stuart works for). As we were going out for a meal before getting the train, we had to get back to St.Paul's to get ready. Getting on the tube??? no chance. Stuart decided we should walk. So all the way back along the embankment again. On the way Stuart was looking around and says"Oooooh, do we run along the river?" At this we all laugh. He obviously only sees the road when he is running lol. At least we got the tube to the restaurant. I feel like Jennifer and I have walked the marathon this weekend. Up and down stairs, on and off "tube" trains and general walking. At least we will have walked off all the food.lol. Time getting on, got a taxi to take Jennifer and I to the train station. Asked for King's Cross but taxi driver took us to St.Pancras and insisted that was the right one. Grrrrrrrrrr.............. After verifying he was wrong we had to run across the road and along a tunnel to get to King's Cross. The train was on the platform. Oh help. Anyway we made it thankfully (It is not good to run straight after eating and carrying your luggage). Train journey home was a bit emotional as Ray has now been gone exactly 8 weeks at 21.27. Got home at 23:10. So glad to be home, but so glad I went . Thank you everyone for all your good wishes and support and for all who kindly sponsored Stuart for this event. He has raised approximately £2,000 although the final tally is not yet in. As for Stuart, he is now planning to do a Marathon round Snowden in October. (Mad fool). So well done Stuart. Dad and I are so proud of you love x x x p.s. They didn't get the ring as Kayo cannot make her mind up and has THE most expensive tastes. lol (Jennifer suggested a hoola hoop ring lol)

Marathon countdown

2009-04-22T11:14:29Z

I can't believe the marathon day is almost here. It seems like years ago that Stuart came and asked his dad (Ray) to nominate a charity for him to raise funds for, but it was only January. The chosen charity was St.Gemma's Hospice in Leeds. What we didn't know at the time was that Ray would be making use of the services offered by St.Gemmas's quite so soon. My daughter and I are going to London on Saturday to give support to Stuart when he runs his race. Stuart is taking his future wife with him and they are going to look for wedding rings. I have had to refuse to tag along on such a personal and romantic event. We are all then going to visit with my nephew and his wife who live in Walton-On-Thames. I am looking forward to seeing their gorgeous daughter who has eyes like a bush baby. The big day of course is on Sunday and for us at least, it will be a very emotional day as a very important person will be missing from our party. I wish Stuart and everyone else who is running a very good and safe race. If you managed to get to this end of this without falling asleep, I thank you very much and hope you are having a good day. I am now going to visit my dad and hopefully my sister and her five year old grandson. The sun is shining and life feels good today (if a little empty). I just have to learn now to get on with my life and make the best of it. At least I have my health which is a big thing to be thankful for. x x x

Marathon run

2009-04-14T12:13:27Z

Hello everyone, I am here today to be cheeky. My son is running the London Marathon in memory of his dad Ray Hill (whose memorial is on this site). He is raising money for the local hospice where his dad spent his last days (a charity which his dad chose). If anyone would like to sponsor him you can do so on justgiving.com/stuartphill. I know this is naughty but it is a cause that is close to my heart and as the hospices are charitable organisations, they need all the help they can get. If nothing else just check out his tribute to his dad. It made me cry as it was straight from the heart. He does not say very much normally but has been deeply affected by his dad's illness and subsequent death. Thank you for reading this and I wish you all well in your treatments and cares. x x x Patricia Hill