just an update

2010-09-28T07:53:19Z

I only have afew days to go before i start my treatment and to be fair , yep i am scared, no amount of infomation and lectures hasnt helped, but talking in the forums has

It is strange how scared i am i think im suffering panic attacks at every turn which is nothing i have experianced in my life before, and i have cook for some stuck up celebs too! so to sum up , im frightened of not knowning, worried about the treatment, and need a date for a wedding, so apart from that its all good!

I thank those that responded to my first ever blog, i didnt know how to create another blog so i guess i just added to the previous one, ( i didnt see a create new blog tab on the right hand side bofore people ask lol ) it was great to see the replys and the fact that in messages people are so open about what they have

Thankyou all and thankyou Macmillan

first time blogger, chemo and radio patient

2010-09-24T16:03:35Z

Im not sure what to write, no really, i only joined the website today after speaking to a wonderful lady on the phone, like many people i guess i was under the "it can only happen to them" guise but then it happened to me,

next week i start my first sessions of chemo and radio, im scared, nervous and wake up in a sweat over what may happen, i want to thx the people oi met in the chat today, you ladies and gents are the true heros out there

So there it is in a nut shell, im 36 and have skin and liver , yep thats right i went and bogof the deal, shame though cause i didnt read the whole contract , that will teach me to read the fine print, and into the unknown, it scares the bajibahs out of me but i think i wont fight it, more accept what i have and then dance the light fantastic, hopefully i have the energy to take this dance all the way

I guess support is the key, i do have a tear in my eye not knowing is a big part of this but then i guess everyone has the same feelings

First time blogger,chemo and radio patient

just an update

first time blogger, chemo and radio patient