end of her journey

2011-09-11T17:04:37Z

its been a while since I last blogged, but its been one hell of at few months.

My wonderful mom passed away on the 30th July 2011, she was such a wonderfull brave women, I still can't believe it.

She had been unwell since may really but in the end she went so quickly. But she had made it perfectly clear to us all that she had enough, she was so sick of the pain and I think the thought of her not been able to come home because of how poorly she became was the last straw for her which makes me feel so so quilty.

Her funeral took place on the 11th August, it was such a lovely service and so very personal, we played some music from her favorite singer 'Mario Lanza' and my very brave nephew read a most beautifull poem from the grand children, I must take my hat off to him he did her proud.

Its been a few weeks now and I'm not sure how I feel, some days are better than other's. she's the first thing I think about in a morning and the last thing I think about at night. I'm stilloff work at the moment with depession but I think I need to go back soon to get back into some kind of normality , what ever that is. we had such support from our wonderful friends and family

The council tell my I can take on the tenency of our house after my mom's death however they also are saying they are concidering moveing me beause I'm in a three bedroom house, so now Ive got that to fight this as well as copying with the grief. If they make me move after for 45 years of living here I don't know what I will do, my family are all around me, my sister only lives over the round and my brother 5 min down the road if they make me go I might as well not be alive too :(

lisa