Doggysitterhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/doggysitter/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-09-24T16:56:01ZNot copinghttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/doggysitter/posts/not-coping2009-10-20T18:22:25Z2009-10-20T18:22:25Z<p>Hi</p>
<p>I'm not coping well at the moment. I feel that I've let everyone down, especially my daughter who is 42 and 7 months pregnant. I've always helped her out with the children, who are 13, 9 and 6, and just feel so much for her. She is being so brave, but is not well herself, and her husband has recently been made redundant, so I help out financially, as I don't think it will help me having money in the bank, although it's not much. I just wish I could draw the clock back two months ago, when everything was fine. People say Chris, you look so good, although I am an old bird, 67, and now I look like 107, but don't ,much care what I look like at the moment. I go into hospital on Friday 23rd for a masectomy. I' ve had too much to drink at the moment, it's the only way I can cope at the moment. Sorry to be so inane.</p>
<p>CHRIS</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=263620&AppID=29936&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberHi to everyone out therehttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/doggysitter/posts/hi-to-everyone-out-there2009-09-24T15:56:01Z2009-09-24T15:56:01Z<p>Today is not a good day for me. In fact I am sitting in the garden drinking a bottle of wine and feeling very sorry for myself, I'm not normally a negative person, but having been diagnosed with BC I just don't know how to deal with it. I have my results confirmed tomorrow. My daughter who is six months pregnant with her fourth child is taking me, together with my son. I just feel that I've let them down. I've taken my dog for a walk, which is a big help. She's a yorkshire terrier called Rosie, and I love her to bits, as I do all animals.</p>
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<p>You just think this isn't happening today, although today someone said, "Chris you look really good, you've lost weight." I can actually see my cheek bones, which I haven't seen for years.</p>
<p>Anyway, anyone out there for a chat, please get in touch. I think we all know how we are feeling. I suddenly wish I had a partner to share this with. I've been on my own for years and like it this way, but not any more.</p>
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<p>I live in the Essex area, and anyone out there who would like to meet up for a coffee or whatever, please get in touch.</p>
<p>Regards.</p>
<p>CHRIS</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=254152&AppID=29936&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember