https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/dealing_with_the_aftermath/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2011-05-05T20:31:14Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/dealing_with_the_aftermath/posts/i-miss-my-dad2011-05-05T19:31:14Z2011-05-05T19:31:14Z<p>I lost my Dad on the 3rd August 2009 when i was just 17 years old. It was only 6 weeks after he was diagnosed and it all happened so quick.</p> <p>He collapsed one night and i was forced to do CPR. Nothing helped and no one could help him, even the paramedics. He was pronounced dead 2 and a half hours after he collapsed.</p> <p>I was always a Daddy&#39;s girl. My brother and sister are a lot older and had moved out of the family home. It was my Dad who was always there for me when i came home from school and who was there on school holidays. He supported me in all my dreams and it hurts me that he never got to see a few of them come true. He died before my last year of 6th form and never saw me get a place a university. Every good moment in my life now seems overshadowed by the loss of him.</p> <p>Been away in Uni sucks. I find it so hard to get a connection with him and i miss him so much. I have only just started grieving and it is tearing me apart. I can&#39;t stop the flashbacks and nightmares about that night. I&#39;m now on sleeping meds, anti depressants and attending counselling. Nothing seems to help.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>Thought i would start at blog to share my journey.</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=422203&AppID=31776&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember