https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/daddys_story/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2010-10-07T23:38:51Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/daddys_story/posts/the-last-chemio-today2010-10-18T22:32:48Z2010-10-18T22:32:48Z<p>Dad had his last chemio today. I&#39;m going back home on Thursday and hopefully this will cheer him up a bit and we can spend some time watching movies and maybe taking the dog for a walk (if he feels up to it - dad, not the dog!)</p> <p>The next scan is on 29th November and mum sent me and my sister a message saying she&#39;s very worried as they haven&#39;t spend this long without seeing doctors or going to the hospital and she almost feels <b>left alone</b>. I live 1200 miles away, so I can&#39;t really help except for keep on calling in the evening.</p> <p>What else can I do? She&#39;s really worried and upset and the long wait had just begun.</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=377065&AppID=31192&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/daddys_story/posts/can-t-sleep2010-10-07T22:38:51Z2010-10-07T22:38:51Z<p>Hi all,</p> <p>I just joined the site and decided to put all my thoughts into words, hoping to feel better and be able to sleep a bit better tonight.</p> <p>In May this year, I found out that my dad has lung cancer. Only a few weeks ago the doctor confirmed that there&#39;s no option for surgery and he&#39;ll start a therapy to slow down the cancer (after he&#39;ll complete this chemio cycle). The news made my world fall into pieces... When I heard the first diagnosis in May (when there was still the possibility of surgery), I really hoped we could fight this and that he was going to be fine. After the surgery got postponed, I still didn&#39;t want to admit it was serious and I wanted to keep a straight face for my two younger sisters. But the news from a few weeks ago was too much to handle! </p> <p>After a few days in tears, I feel a bit better and I carry on with my everyday life. My main problem is that I feel so stupid for thinking my dad could have survived lung cancer. I&#39;m trying to accept it, but it&#39;s SO hard. How can I accept that I&#39;m going to loose him?</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>PS: A week ago I raised some money for MacMillan by selling cakes at work... that made me feel better!</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=373999&AppID=31192&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember