cornishmaid&#39;s blog https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/cornishmaid/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2009-06-23T11:51:09Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/cornishmaid/posts/where-we-are-now2009-06-23T10:51:09Z2009-06-23T10:51:09ZWell its been a while since I joined this group, since then Fran has started his chemo 2 out of 6 so far, his third was put off as his blood was low so he&#39;s back in this week. He also starts his Radiotheraphy as well Life is now very strange, up and down like a rollercoaster. Fran is still in denial, talking about doing things , moving house so we can have our dream house with a bit of land. Buying more equipment for the garage . Its great he&#39;s so positive, but thats because he does not know anything or want to know anything about what he has. Who am I to burst that bubble, he&#39;s happy. Me, I feel on a razor edge, I don&#39;t let him see me cry, I go out to walk the dog or go in the shower. i can&#39;t sleep, or think straight. My work is suffering as my mind is not in it and find it hard to concentrate on the most simple tasks these days. I just hope he stays well as he is for a long time.I scare myself rigid when I read up on the pack the hospital has given us, I just have to be strong for him. <div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=227669&AppID=22230&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember