https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/chelsea_girl/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2010-06-05T16:21:24Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/chelsea_girl/posts/help-please-tell-me-my-feelings-are-normal2010-06-05T15:21:24Z2010-06-05T15:21:24Z<p>Hiya everyone, iv just joined and not to sure what im doing! i would love to talk to people who are going through the same difficulties and emotions that cancer throws at you.</p> <p>Im 32 and have a fantastic husband and 2 great children but 2 weeks before xmas i was told that i had breast cancer in my right breast which had spread to my armpit and lymph nodes in my neck. i had been going to my GP for 12 months previous because of a lump in my breast and neck but he assured me it was a sports injury.</p> <p>I had my last chemo in April- thankgod! and 2 weeks ago i had a masectomy. i saw my oncologist yesterday to talk about my radiopherapy, he was pleased with my operation as the tumours in my armpit , neck and breast had more or less gone, which is great but know i have got to have a MRI scan because my last CT scan showed a thickening in the bones of my back, but he seems to think it is a side effect of the chemo, -has anyone else experienced this? is it&nbsp; normal?</p> <p>Two weeks ago i felt like i could see light at the end of the tunnel, but now i feel like im in the dark again and im cracking up. Up until now i have been really posative and have only cried a handful of times, but now i feel sick when i see myself in the mirror and cry all the time. im scared that im not gonna be here for my kids............................................... please let&nbsp; there be other people out there like me.</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=343204&AppID=30843&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember