Bubbles36's blog

What to do??

2009-09-23T22:19:54Z

Well I finally found my way here after a bit of trying. Strange really few weeks ago I wanted to leave but then when I couldn't sign in I went into complete panic!

Still not sure whether I should stay or go really. Its been just over 8 months since losing my Mum and it just isn't getting any better! People kept telling me it would get easier but it just isn't!!

I miss my Mum every single day and still some days can't believe she has really gone. I have like a video playing in my head of her last few weeks with us, none of which was nice times and I just can't seem to find that stop button.

As I'm typing this I have no idea why I even am! I keep thinking, should I really still be here or leave, dunno what to do for that best!

Anyway, will stop going on.

Bubbles xx

How do I?

2009-07-10T22:29:08Z

Could anyone tell me how I can delete my account on here please? Sorry if this is in totally the wrong place but wasn't sure where else to go to ask someone!

She's gone :(

2009-01-27T15:49:46Z

Well my fear's came true yet again. I was so scared when Mum went into the hospice last Friday that she wouldn't come home again, I was right. We got a call at 6.30am this morning saying we should go as her breathing had become very laboured. She passed away at 10.30am. This has been so quick and I think to a degree I am in a little bit of shock. Can't get my head around her being gone. Am missing her so much already and just don't how to get through this. Anyway once again the tears are falling so will sign off for now. Thanks to everyone for their support over the last couple of weeks.

Hospice

2009-01-23T16:13:44Z

My mum was taken into the hospice today. The Macmillan Nurse suggested this as a way of getting her pain under control which has increased more and more just this week and she has really deteriorated in just the last few days. Her morphone was increased and she was also put on liquid morphine too and since then has been hallucinating and really not been with us at all. The hospice seems like a lovely place and the people/nurses are great but so didn't want to leave her there. This might sound ridiculous but I'm just so scared that this is it, that she won't be coming home anymore. Feeling so many different emotions at the moment and just don't know what to do with myself.