bobsbabes's blog

Back on the rollercoaster

2010-11-14T19:01:30Z

Sadly after having lost Dad on Mums birthday 11 sept I had hoped that I would see the back of cancer for a while .Sadly though it has lifted its ugly head again and my lovely mother in law has been diagnosed with cancer of the Oesophagus (stage 3)

I have everything crossed that all will be well and she responds well to treatment

horrible day all round

2010-08-24T17:15:55Z

it has become apparent today that dad no longer has control of his bowels .This in itself it not so much a problem but what will be a problem is keeping him clean as he refuses to wear a incontenence pad as he says doesnt need one today he hadnt relised he had had an accident at all .

How on earth do we convince him that yes he does need one with out upseting him ?

The district nurse is ordering a hospital bed for him as the stairs are getting to hard mum feels she cant assist him up the stairs any longer for both her safety and his (her knee has had no chance to recover properly from her replacement op) but again how do we get him to use it all I can hope is that by the time it arrives he will have accepted that he no longer physicly get up the stairs.

He has oxygen to use but wont use it in fact today when district nurse came the oxygen monitor thing couldnt work as his levels were so low .It did come up at 85% after 15 mins on the oxygen but again he says he doesnt need it .

Dont know what to do or how to help anyone just feel useless and lost :(

balance

2010-08-18T16:43:13Z

Wel dad has for the last few weeks sad with his head in his arms but today he attempted to sit up as his brother came to see him but even sitting dad was falling over sideways and ended up hanging on to the table to stay upright.He can longer shave even with an electric razor.

He also seems to be a little more confused than he has been,also he has to wee urgently comes on all of a sudden and then he is desperate but mac nurse is out tomorrow so mum will get her opinion on it sadly I am working so wont be there to poke me nose in lol

He has been asked if he wants to go for a day at the hospicewill also give mum a little time off to do stuff but he wasnt keen may get mum to pop his name down anyhow as there is a waiting list to go and he may change his mind .

bad news

2010-07-13T16:48:08Z

Sadly dads tumour is the cause of the swollen head which means the tumour is growing much quicker than they had hoped .

Consultant says he only has weeks left . he has rt tomorrow which hopefully will mean that he is more comfortable

bit scared

2010-07-11T20:20:27Z

Hmm bit scared no I am not a bit scared am terrified to be told that when dad goes he will probably just drop down is a bit hard to get my head round .

Dads tumour grows round the supreiour vena cava (sp) so eventually will cut off the blood suply to the brain

Then on the other hand I kinda think that maybe that will be the better way for him to go instead of being in pain etc ?

My head is all over the place but then i know that my feelings in all of this are really unimportant

I really hate this thing as i am sure we all do