https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/aofies_random_blog/atomTelligent Community (Build: 12.1.2.21912)2010-03-17T00:28:33Zhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/aofies_random_blog/posts/is-beginning-to-think-what-is-the-point2010-03-22T10:37:30Z2010-03-22T10:37:30Z<p>I beginning to wonder why i bother with alot of people in my life....... the minute they have a problem i am there 100%, but the minute i need some support or someone to cry with or moan abut things they all back off or i get cut off......&nbsp;i understand they have alot of things going on in their life and i get told ive got a cancer they can cure so i dont really have any right to be upset about it...... but one gets to moan to me about how&nbsp;her placement for uni is and the other about how her life is and i let them, but i feel like i cant say anything about what im going through, as they will just jump on everything ill say...... on friday just gone i spent &pound;30 on food, so we could sit and have a proper girls night in and while it was fun, im left out in the cold and they talk to each other every day, serval times a day...... but i just feel oh its just her..... we will just not bother with her.......... im just beginning to feel that im not worth anything.......</p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=325917&AppID=30539&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermemberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-blogs/b/aofies_random_blog/posts/new-to-all-of-this2010-03-16T23:28:33Z2010-03-16T23:28:33Z<p>Hello, </p> <p>I&#39;m pretty new to all this, was only diagnosed with thyroid cancer a week ago, so am still feeling a tad shocked about it, but then i go to the other extreme and feel like im a fraud and really shouldn&#39;t be getting upset about it. In the 24 hours that followed that fateful day, i found out my best friends grandmother has cancer and it is more than likely to be terminal and one of my work mates wife has terminal cancer. So i started feeling like i had no right to get upset or had any reason to cry and moan, as compared to them, mine isn&#39;t that bad.</p> <p>I then start worrying about how everything is going to be paid for when i have to undergo treatment, my partner cant find work and my work has made it clear i will only be getting ssp.. so i start to panic, what happens if im halfway through treatment and ive got to move, but have no where to go.... and local councils are not very willing in helping untill you are in a complete mess with no where to go, or it seems mine isnt.</p> <p><em>Im then worrying about how my partner, friends and family about this and feeling like i have to be the strong one, as my family and partner are falling apart... i just feel in all of this regradless of how i feel, no one is actually going to listen to me.... i guess right now im feeling alone.</em></p><div style="clear:both;"></div><img src="https://community.macmillan.org.uk/aggbug?PostID=324522&AppID=30539&AppType=Weblog&ContentType=0" width="1" height="1">Former Memberhttps://community.macmillan.org.uk/members/formermember