Hi
Well six months today since I loss my beautiful mum. Started to get tearful yesterday and continue today. I am also thinking back to exactly this time last year, June was such a significant month as I spent ten days away from my family to be with mum whilst she received treatment in hospital and then brought her home with me for a further two weeks, so I have all these clear memories of what we were doing this time last year and it’s hard. I never in my wildest dreams thought that we had such little time left and I still feel that disbelief of what has happened. It’s so hard living life without such an important person, after all Mum and I d been together all of my life, and nine months before. Life has changed forever and certainly not for the better. I now see life as a challenge; can I survive without my Mum? Old and trusted friends, my brothers and of course my sons and partner have all taken on new significance for me, even more important and precious as they are all I have left, now the two 'rocks' in my life have gone. Yet I feel it is just me, not alone, just that I am on my own. When I had my parents I was a part of them, but now ultimately it is just me.
