Angiebabe's blog

Still Crying. (Tongue in Cheek)

2008-12-03T17:49:58Z

Went for my 3 week post op check up today following my breast reconstruction, saw my lovely consultant Dr X. Hi Ange he said how are you, am fine thanks but think I have a little seroma on my back. Jumped up on the bed, well didnt jump havnt got the f*********g energy but sort of shuffled and slithered in to place. I am that use to being poked and prodded that i dont even wear a gown now so their I am breathing in, veins in neck ready to burst, showing my lovely new left titty off. Well even tho I say it myself says Dr X its absolutely fab, yes I agree with him, but can you tell me did you use an implant (its a bit on the large size you c but am not complaining) No Ange all your own FAT. Mmmmmmmmm I thought all my own fat, so its official Iam a FFB. Ok does seem to be a little fluid on your back so I will aspirate it, Dr X washes hands then menacingly approaches with what can only be described as a bicycle pump, you will feel a little prick Ange but its shouldnt hurt or he might have said a little sting cant remember.!!!! 4 full kidney bowls later I am ready to leave, decided against having my right chest expander pumped up coz by this stage I was all pumped out. Couldnt wait to get home and weight myself after all 4 kidney bowls must weigh quite a few litres, boy was I in for a shock Ive actually put another half a stone on in three weeks FFS. Anyway at this moment in time I am still crying, mascara running down my cheeks, looking like Alice Cooper, and all because I am cooking curry and chopping onions, Ive tried the "spoon in your mouth, standing on one leg, singing Auld Lang Syne theory, but the tears have still not abated. Can anyone out their please help me, how do you peel onions without crying???????? P.S To add insult to injury Dr X gave me an injection of steriod does that mean that my moon face will be even moonier when I get up in the morning get wot I mean.!!!

Breast Reconstruction

2008-11-17T12:46:43Z

Hello everyone I am home after my recent operation and feeling quite elated and inflated if not sore . Had my op on Monday 10th Nov and came home 3 days later, in quite a bit of pain and weak but am now well on the road to recovery. The morning of the op didnt start off too promising we were lined up in a corridor awaiting our turn to book in after which we were herded into a communal waiting room to await theatre. It was a mixture of patients old an young, male an female, with graffiti marked limbs to be operated on. I went down at 11am and got back to my room at 6pm only to discover I had been put in the private part of the hospital and what a difference this makes. I had my own ensuite room, tea was served on a tray with pot, jug and china cup, none of those shitty little plastic things that you cant hold for fear of sustaining third degree burns. Breakfast was cereal, fresh juice, pot of tea an toast in one of those cute little silver trays. The meals were prepared on site by "our own chef" with a choice of menu including steak, turkey, prawns just about anything you fancied really. The day after my operation I was wheeled upstairs for some pampering (this is part of the NHS available to all breast cancer patients in my area) so had a facial, then had my hair cut, washed, and dried, then had my make up done so felt a million dollars. It certainly made my stay more enjoyable I was quite tempted to string it out abit and say I wasnt well enough to go home. Now back to the reconstruction, I just love my new "puppy" it is "pert" full and very natural looking infact better than the ones I got taken off. Its been worth the wait and the agonies and the pain (still got the drain in due out Wed) and I cant wait to show off my new cleaverage, Ive had a chest expander put in the other side which will be pumped up each week ready for an implant if it doesnt look right my consultant said he would remove it and do another LD reconstruction, so its happy days, I finally feel like Iam reaching the end of this shit period in my life, looking forward to shedding some weight, buying some nice sexy underwear and beginning to feel like a woman again which is what i needed. Anyone want a pair of "D" cup prothesis only one careless owner.

Why do I feel so guilty.

2008-11-08T16:32:52Z

I have been waiting to be well enough to have breast reconstruction following a double mastectomy early last year. The operation is planned for Monday and I am feeling really guilty about putting my lovely family through yet more worry even though they have encouraged me because I hate the way I look.I think part of the problem was I had no choice about cancer, surgery, chemo and radio and here I am about to put myself through the mill again purely for cosmetic purposes. I will then have to go do the same all over again on my other side. I am having a LD flap which I have been told is quite a big operation so no doubt it will be a while before I am up an about again. Can anyone give me some moral support??????